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Passionate Addiction

June 3, 2006 · 9 comments

in Anxiety,Health in Mind & Body,Poetry,Words

Congratulations to all the sites accepted into the 9rules Blog Network. I just finished going through the list of acceptees – 111 new sites have been added to the infamous network pending acceptance of their respective member agreements.

Jessicadoyle.ca is not on the list. My emotional plethora of passionate addiction will continue travelling forward nonetheless. Ah – too say I’m not sad would be a lie. This whole endeavour shocked my system beyond belief. The anxiety today has finallly broken and to my surprise the sun came out; what a relief. Too often I become wrapped up in ideals and beliefs that are not my own running out of breath trying to keep up with the Jones’. If you read my posts since my submission to 9rules from May 17th onwards you will see a huge transition from my normal insightful honest posts to that of “God what the hell am I doing” written posts. I became what I did not want to be; buying into the idea that my site needed major overhauling brought on by no other than myself. I began ruthlessly learning all I could about tags, and links and worth and shizamm – I was left feeling addicted and anxious.

Have I learned something from this? You betcha! I learned to take it slow, be who I am and not make excuses for what I am not. Would I like to become part of a network someday? Yes, I would.

This quote from the Book the Dance is the question I ask myself:

What if the
question is not
why am I so
infrequently
the person I
really want to be,
but why do I so
infrequently want to be
the person I really am?

Oriah Mountain Dreamer 2001©.

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Bonita in Pink June 3, 2006 at 21:41

Ahhh girl… Don’t be sad.
Be happy! :-)
Just keep being you and be happy being you and I think that will reflect and let you in 9rules one day. [That's not saying that you haven't been] Just continue doing what you do. Be yourself. Happy.

With all due respect to 9rules [because I sure would like to belong to it one day as well] You don’t need to part of the network for people to know your blog is a gem.
Just improve your site where you think it needs improvement… and you’ll see! You’ll be in one day!

Smile girly.

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vanesica June 4, 2006 at 00:22

Hi… ah thanks girl! Yeah it got me down but it also got me thinking about what I am actually doing and what is important to me. It’s been a rather insightful, introspective day. I kept busy just doing housework and running errands. It’s funny how gettin’ the laundry done can clear your mind

I’m glad I met you that is digitally anyways… he he he! [hug] you have a great spirit and lust for life.

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chris rhee June 4, 2006 at 22:59

Yeah, don’t try to be different to get into 9rules (or for any reason). Otherwise you’ll have to keep that persona up and that shit ain’t fun. Be you!

And nice quote, too. I might have to steal that one day.

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vanesica June 5, 2006 at 02:18

Hi Chris… yeah keeping up a false persona isn’t fun. I’ve been there, done that and hope to not do it again.

Yeah feel free to use the quote! She is an amazing writer. Her wisdom and words always have a way of touching my heart and lifting my spirit :)

Your website is too funny! And great! Ah… your mean girlfriend… I’ve stumbled across it a few times now. He he he!

Thx for stopping by – cheers!

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Colin D. Devroe June 5, 2006 at 05:46

What a great attitude! I can’t wait to see all of the changes that the blogs make that did not make it in. I think those that do not get in actually benefit as much as those that get in, since those that did not now take the time to try to improve the blogs and their content.

Next time….

Weigh in tomorrow!!!!

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Shawn Anthony June 5, 2006 at 13:12

“You don’t need to part of the network for people to know your blog is a gem.”

Absolutely! I – for whatever that’s worth – think your’s is a wonderful blog! Keep up the great work …

Also, thanks to my visit here I was reminded of our group weigh in!

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vanesica June 5, 2006 at 14:02

Thank you guys.

Yeah tomorrow’s weigh in should be fun. I’m curious to see how others are doing.

And about not being accepted… I’m truly ok with that. My site is in it’s infancy as I’m still learning. I have not settled completely on a theme and my art gallery is not up and running yet. As I progress my site will progress taking it one step at a time. If anything I have learned to place more attention on drawing, painting and writing and thus will be focusing on such for the next little bit. I’m getting to cought up in what everyone else is doing and forgetting about what I am doing.

Til’ tomorrow’s weigh in…
:)

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chester June 5, 2006 at 15:03

That’s the best non-acceptance speech I’ve ever read. Maybe you needed some nudity.

You’ve come a long way from reading about blogs to being a premium blog writer. All in the space of a few months. Keep up the good work!

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vanesica June 7, 2006 at 13:09

Thanks Chester [hug]

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