Congratulations to all the sites accepted into the 9rules Blog Network. I just finished going through the list of acceptees – 111 new sites have been added to the infamous network pending acceptance of their respective member agreements.
Jessicadoyle.ca is not on the list. My emotional plethora of passionate addiction will continue travelling forward nonetheless. Ah – too say I’m not sad would be a lie. This whole endeavour shocked my system beyond belief. The anxiety today has finallly broken and to my surprise the sun came out; what a relief. Too often I become wrapped up in ideals and beliefs that are not my own running out of breath trying to keep up with the Jones’. If you read my posts since my submission to 9rules from May 17th onwards you will see a huge transition from my normal insightful honest posts to that of “God what the hell am I doing” written posts. I became what I did not want to be; buying into the idea that my site needed major overhauling brought on by no other than myself. I began ruthlessly learning all I could about tags, and links and worth and shizamm – I was left feeling addicted and anxious.
Have I learned something from this? You betcha! I learned to take it slow, be who I am and not make excuses for what I am not. Would I like to become part of a network someday? Yes, I would.
This quote from the Book the Dance is the question I ask myself:
What if the
question is not
why am I so
infrequently
the person I
really want to be,
but why do I so
infrequently want to be
the person I really am?
Oriah Mountain Dreamer 2001©.
