Please respond to the following questions?

As human beings do we change over time? Do our inner most souls evolve into something newer sleeker or for that matter slowly rot away into nothingness? Well, I hope not into nothingness yet one never knows what could happen and there is no sense worrying about because there are people in this world who worry enough for the whole world yet are powerless to change it because, it is worry and worry just does not fix a God Damn thing.

Jessica - looking up.So I have some questions. These questions I will ask to everyone who reads my site. Everyone is welcome to answer but only through leaving a comment online. Please don’t send me an email. This site in NOT private. I have nothing to hide. All I want is some help in gaining an understanding of who I am – both the good and the bad. I feel like my life is cycling right now. I don’t want to pedal anymore. I’m asking you all for help please? You can post your comment anonymously if you like and copy and paste the following questions into the comment box. Your comment will come into moderation and I’ll put it live.

This is a big hello to all you family and friends Back East… I think I need you all the most right now. If you ever loved or cared about me or maybe just even think about me every so often would you be so kind as to answer these questions. I spent a lot of time with many of you; years, even decades. I know some of you visit my site (my stats prove it). Some of you don’t keep in touch with me nor I with you but at some time during our lives our paths did cross and we shared moments together. Think of this as an art project for me. A creative way for me to understand my life so I can move on and better myself. What I don’t want is for you to paint a rosy picture for me; all that would do is create more delusions in my head. Please tell me how it was / is in your own words and the way you remember it. All I ask for is honesty.

  • When and how did we meet?

    Did we ever kiss eachother?

    What is your favorite memory of me?

    Did we ever play together? when?

    In three words describe me?

    Did I help you in any way?

    Did I hurt you in any way?

    Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?

    Were we ever inspired?

    Did we ever conspire?

    Do you think of me?

    How could I improve?

    What am I missing?

    What was my focus like?

    Could I complete a task?

    What emotions were most prevalent with me?

    Was the sex good? or not applicable?

    If you could change one thing about me what would it be?

    If I said “I have thought of you all, many times” would you beleive me?

    What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?

    Do we have unfinshed business?

    When did we last see/talk to eachother/ phone/email?

    What was my favorite thing?

    What scares you about me?

    What did I do?

    If you said I was anything what would it be to you?

    What was / is my relationship to you?

    Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?

    Would I make a good mother?

    I need to make money. What could I do?

    And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?

Thanks everyone.

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  1. When and how did we meet?
    At Langara circa January 2004.

    Did we ever kiss each other?
    Nope, but I was in your bedroom once. Woo~ooo!

    What is your favorite memory of me?
    I’m not sure, specifically – I haven’t known you that long or personally, really. But I always enjoyed you during your happy times so I guess I’m saying my favourite memory of you is, collectively, your sense of humour.

    Did we ever play together? when?
    Well there was that one time in your bedroom… I keed, I keed! So not really playing, but we joked around often.

    In three words describe me?
    Creative. Resiliant. Gracious.

    Did I help you in any way?
    Of course! I’m jealous of your ability to just put yourself and your work out there and let be what may. In a small way your inspire me in along those lines.

    Did I hurt you in any way?
    You haven’t replied to my last email. 😐

    Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?
    No tears – more laughter. See favourite memory.

    Were we ever inspired?
    Maybe?

    Did we ever conspire?
    No, I wouldn’t say so.

    Do you think of me?
    From time to time, of course!

    How could I improve?
    Be clean and healthy as much as possible. I don’t know fully where you are with this currently, however.

    What am I missing?
    I don’t know. What ARE you missing?

    What was my focus like?
    During the time I knew you best, quite good, actually.

    Could I complete a task?
    You completed most of the assigned tasks if I recall correctly. Same average as the others, I’d say.

    What emotions were most prevalent with me?
    You seemed to swing from happy confidence to miserable depression, at times, so I’d put the most prevalent emotion around 70% to the happy/confident side.

    Was the sex good? or not applicable?
    It is not applicable, but one can use one’s imagination. 😉

    If you could change one thing about me what would it be?
    I’m really not certain.

    If I said “I have thought of you all, many times” would you beleive me?
    Yes I would.

    What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?
    I haven’t known you long or well enough, I think, to accurately comment.

    Do we have unfinshed business?
    We do, actually.

    When did we last see/talk to eachother/ phone/email?
    We exchanged a few emails a few weeks ago discussing getting together. I’ve still got that CD for you!

    What was my favorite thing?
    Wiskers on kittens?

    What scares you about me?
    You’re small, but you could probably hurt me. You seem like a biter.

    What did I do?
    I’m not sure I understand.

    If you said I was anything what would it be to you?
    Hm… I don’t know. I might have to come back to this later (I’m at work now…)

    What was / is my relationship to you?
    We were aquantances and then friends, I think. Not close, but I don’t keep close friends so no worries.

    Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?
    Nope, clean slate!

    Would I make a good mother?
    If you are like how I remember you, then yes. If you are like how you’ve described your old self to me, then no.

    I need to make money. What could I do?
    You could settle for a decent design/art gig somewhere. Somewhere that doesn’t push 70 hours a week. Settling sucks, though, so if you’re going to do it make sure you keep time to do your own thing.

    And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?
    Who says you aren’t? Maybe to fruit they’re the people and we’re the fruit. Think about it.

  2. -> When and how did we meet?

    One sunny morning at our first day of school. You walked through the door with a halo of sun to you back and I was sure I saw an angel. Then Andy came in after you and I was sad to see that you were in love… later the two of you became wonderful friends… life is sweet.

    -> Did we ever kiss each other?

    Yep, in a sweet kind of way as apposed to the grinding, sweaty way. I’m sure both are wonderful but I’m happy to have your sweetness in my life.

    -> What is your favorite memory of me?

    I have so, so many – each involves a huge laugh and perhaps a few tears. The bottom line is that you’re more of presence in my memory rather than a specific thought… ahhh, get out my head :)

    -> Did we ever play together? when?

    Almost every time we see each other. There’s always something to share and the best part is it often ends in big hugs.

    -> In three words describe me?

    Sweet, selfish, open

    -> Did I help you in any way?

    Many, many times but often in our conversations you listen and tell me it’s OK. In an odd way I trust you which is a rare feeling for me.

    -> Did I hurt you in any way?

    Yep and I’ll never forgive you for telling me I have yellow teeth… mind you I wouldn’t give up your honesty for the world.

    -> Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?

    You’ve never made me cry and the laugh list is too huge to go through. Most often you simply make me feel welcomed, holding my hand, little kisses and big hugs. You’re kind of the girl next door who I grew up with, had a crush on and ultimately became a special friend.

    -> Were we ever inspired?

    Sooo, so many time where often I end up running in circles just trying to keep up with you. I so, so want to do the recording with you again.

    -> Did we ever conspire?

    Oh we’ve had a few plans that when the drug induced brilliance wore off the plots just floated away… luckily.

    -> Do you think of me?

    Often and in may ways. Everything from worry to frustration and the odd bit of lust just for fun.

    -> How could I improve?

    I hope you find more peace, how to do this is all up to you.

    -> What am I missing?

    Bigger boobs… just kidding.

    -> What was my focus like?

    It’s not your strength, I think you often get scared and run.

    Could I complete a task?

    You often don’t travel in a strait line but that’s what makes you interesting.

    -> What emotions were most prevalent with me?

    Way too much worry but I see you moving on from that. You tent to be one of the most positive people I know which in an odd way makes you balanced.

    -> Was the sex good? or not applicable?

    In my head it was wonderful :)

    -> If you could change one thing about me what would it be?

    You’re Jess, why would I change anything?!? I do look forward to whatever you choose to change. Your effort to grow has been inspiring.

    -> If I said “I have thought of you all, many times� would you believe me?

    I really would which is not something I would say about many others.

    -> What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?

    Oh you dream… and then you crash. In my heart I always know you’ll dream again which gives me hope.

    -> Do we have unfinished business?

    Mmm, the recording!?! Oh yes and the hot sex!

    -> When did we last see/talk to each other/ phone/email?

    A few days ago… so lets get together soon!

    -> What was my favorite thing?

    Pepsi!

    -> What scares you about me?

    That you make a crazy decision before thinking it through… “I want babies” was the latest. I could have killed you :)

    -> What did I do?

    Just being you!

    -> If you said I was anything what would it be to you?

    -> What was / is my relationship to you?

    Friend… I wish there was stronger word.

    -> Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?

    I love you… but I’ve said this to you before… how about “oh baby, baby you’re so hot”… na, that doesn’t work. I don’t think there’s a single thing that I’ve kept from you.

    -> Would I make a good mother?

    Ekkk, not this again! One thing at a time girl, first you and then the rest of the world.
    Please oh please no babies at this point.

    -> I need to make money. What could I do?

    Oh you know the answer to this… you just don’t want to do it!

    -> And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?

    Chery

    Now, stop being a “question monster”!

  3. * When and how did we meet?

    You came to the lotus one night with Darren & LaLa. You were all bouncy and smiles but shy at the same time =)

    Did we ever kiss eachother?

    Yes a few times.

    What is your favorite memory of me?

    I don’t know if it’s my favourite but I often think of it and chuckle. The night we went to Lucy Mae Brown’s to listen to Iain play his sax and you were all hoochied up and stood up on top of a cement block and said,”Stand up here and fart. It feels right good!”

    No, actually I think it would have to be seeing you relaxing in the sun at wreck beach with all of your freckles.

    Did we ever play together? when?

    We often played together. Whenever we went to the beach, at parties, at our houses.

    In three words describe me?

    Shining, anxious, open.

    Did I help you in any way?

    You helped to open me in many ways.

    Did I hurt you in any way?

    I feel sad sometimes that we’re not in touch anymore and wonder whether I haven’t tried to keep in touch because you’ve been trying to heal yourself and it frightens me a bit. So I guess that’s me being ashamed of my own behaviour and not you hurting me. So my answer is no you haven’t hurt me.

    Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?

    Sometimes when you would tell me what was happening in your life I would get sad, no crying though. You made me laugh all the time. Oh, I guess this is where that farting story should go.

    Were we ever inspired?

    Often.

    Did we ever conspire?

    Often.

    Do you think of me?

    Yes, I’m a nostalgic kind of girl.

    How could I improve?

    Believing that you can keep it together.

    What am I missing?

    According to me putting my values onto your life? I guess the belief that your life goes where you take it, that it’s all up to you to change it. I haven’t talked to you in awhile though, and I think you were in the process of doing just that.

    What was my focus like?

    A bit bi-polar. Sometimes you were incredibly focussed and other times you were pretty scattered.

    Could I complete a task?

    Yes when you decided to.

    What emotions were most prevalent with me?

    Mostly happy and sometimes anxious and worrying.

    Was the sex good? or not applicable?

    Not applicable but I like to think it would have been quite memorable.

    If you could change one thing about me what would it be?

    I would calm your brain down, but then you wouldn’t be you anymore 😉

    If I said “I have thought of you all, many times� would you beleive me?

    Yes.

    What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?

    To create.

    Do we have unfinshed business?

    We have a friendship in limbo. Is that unfished business?

    When did we last see/talk to eachother/ phone/email?

    We saw each other briefly when Angela came to visit at the end of March.

    What was my favorite thing?

    Writing & drawing.

    What scares you about me?

    Your intensity.

    What did I do?

    Everything you wanted to, I think.

    If you said I was anything what would it be to you?

    To me you were a can opener.

    What was / is my relationship to you?

    A close friend.

    Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?

    No.

    Would I make a good mother?

    Better than most.

    I need to make money. What could I do?

    Work in a garden/nursery. Contract web graphic design stuff?

    And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?

    Passion fruit.

  4. When and how did we meet?

    We met on our street when we were really young like kindergarten or earlier. My memory is not that great but I know it was many many years ago.

    Did we ever kiss eachother?

    Yep

    What is your favorite memory of me?

    Omg there are so many of them where do I start. Having sleepovers in the garage, putting on plays for the neighborhood in the garage, playing hide and seek, sleepovers in the kindergarten accross the street at L’s house, playing the Game of Life in your bedroom. Getting ready for the school dances in your bedroom, curling each others hair, you being in my wedding. Just to name a few, there are so many more I could go on.

    Did we ever play together? when?

    We played together almost ever day growing up. More times then I can think of.

    In three words describe me?

    loyal, scared, ambitious

    Did I help you in any way?

    You showed me what a friend is all about and you were always there for me when I needed you.

    Did I hurt you in any way?

    I am sure we had our squabbles growing up but we always made up with each other within an hour or two. AS for hurting me as an adult not that I can think of. It hurts me to know what you are going through right now.

    Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?

    Oh we had lots of laughs and tears over the many years we have known each other. I am sure you made me cry at some point but nothing traumatizing.

    Were we ever inspired?

    sure

    Did we ever conspire?

    oh yeah, Me “mom I am staying at Jessica’s” You “I am staying at Shy’s” and god only knows where we stayed!!LOL!!

    Do you think of me?

    I do I worry about you a lot and think of you quite often actually. I miss you a lot and wish you would move back home where you have your family and old friends who could help you through what you are going through or at least be there for you.

    How could I improve?

    Just to get yourself better and in a place where you are happy with yourself and you are healthy and clean!!

    What am I missing?

    Me and your family. You should have them by your side and not thouseand of miles away from home.

    What was my focus like?

    Could I complete a task?

    Yes, if you wanted soemthing you put your best foot forward and went for it.

    What emotions were most prevalent with me?

    you had your ups and downs of depression and happiness.

    Was the sex good? or not applicable?

    Not applicable

    If you could change one thing about me what would it be?

    That you werehappy and healthy

    If I said “I have thought of you all, many times� would you beleive me?

    Absolutely

    What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?

    You wanted to be Wonder Woman at one point. I think you just wanted to be successful in a carreer and have a family.

    Do we have unfinshed business?

    No not really

    When did we last see/talk to eachother/ phone/email?

    We saw each other last time you bwere to SJ and have maybe emailed a few times and I have read your blog here and there

    What was my favorite thing?

    a bowl of chips and a pop

    What scares you about me?

    It scares me to see what you are going through right now and what you have been through.

    What did I do?

    If you said I was anything what would it be to you?

    What was / is my relationship to you?

    You are and always will be no matter how much contact we have my best childhood friend

    Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?

    No not really we were always open I think. I often wonder why soem of my friends never stuck up for me when I was being bullied in school and teased and being called pieface but that is in the past.

    Would I make a good mother?

    As the Jessica I know and love yes you would be an amazing mother, in the state you have been in recently I don’t know. Once you find yourself and get back on track you would be amazing.

    I need to make money. What could I do?

    You could move back to SJ and buy an apt building like you said you would like to rent it out and find something in your line of work, graphic design

    And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?

    An orange cause I remember you always eating them and sticking it in your mouth like teeth.

    I love you Jess and miss you and wish you would come home. Take care of yourself and just know we all think of you often and miss ya!!(((HUGS))))

  5. I would answer these but I know we don’t know each other well enough for me to even try to answer them.

    I think you’re a great person though!
    With a BIG HEART!
    Very smart and very talented.

    :-)

  6. When and how did we meet?
    Through Lennon

    Did we ever kiss eachother?
    Yes

    What is your favorite memory of me?
    Watching 9-11 happen while eating breakfast. We thought it was a movie. Very surreal.

    In three words describe me?
    Kind, artistic, searching

    Did I help you in any way?
    You were the first person I was with after then end of a five year relationship. It did wonders for my self-esteem. I don’t think you ever realized how much our friendship meant to me.

    Did I hurt you in any way?
    No.

    Did I make you cry? or laugh? most memorable?
    Laugh…but I can’t remember the times

    Were we ever inspired?
    Your journal keeping got me back into writing. Your ideas on your graphic art helped motivate me to get back into writing.

    Do you think of me?
    I do.

    How could I improve?
    Just be who you are.

    What am I missing?
    No teeth, thank god.

    What was my focus like?
    You were pretty focussed on getting divorced.

    Could I complete a task?
    Yes.

    What emotions were most prevalent with me?
    You seemed pretty solid to me.

    Was the sex good? or not applicable?
    Yes. It only happened once or twice though, and that’s not long enough to really know.

    If you could change one thing about me what would it be?
    Nothing. You’re fine the way you are.

    If I said “I have thought of you all, many times� would you beleive me?
    Yes.

    What was my dream at any age, in your view? Did I have a dream?
    To be a graphic design artist in New York.

    Do we have unfinshed business?
    No.

    When did we last see/talk to eachother/ phone/email?
    Last week.

    What was my favorite thing?
    I don’t remember.

    What scares you about me?
    Nothing.

    What did I do?
    N/A.

    If you said I was anything what would it be to you?
    A friend.

    What was / is my relationship to you?
    Friends who talk every now and then.

    Is there anything you need to say to me that you never said?
    Thanks for being a friend when I needed one :)

    Would I make a good mother?
    Yes.

    I need to make money. What could I do?
    Graphic Design. There’s always ESL too.

    And one more for fun… If I were fruit what would I be?
    A tomato.

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