Comments on: LUCIDITY – full feature http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/ by Jessica Doyle Wed, 08 Sep 2010 14:00:10 +0000 hourly 1 By: Suki http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-711 Suki Mon, 05 Feb 2007 22:33:52 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-711 Okay...reality is harsh but here it is. Get over yourself. I am a former ghb/crystal meth addict (6 years, clean for 2)..manic depressive, masochistic tendancies, victim of child abuse years...the list goes on and on. You are an addict because you call yourself one. I moved across the country and started a new life..shed myself of my addict identity. Everything is not perfect but I'm okay. I'm not being a bitch but stop feeling sorry for yourself, suck it up and move on. Okay…reality is harsh but here it is. Get over yourself. I am a former ghb/crystal meth addict (6 years, clean for 2)..manic depressive, masochistic tendancies, victim of child abuse years…the list goes on and on. You are an addict because you call yourself one. I moved across the country and started a new life..shed myself of my addict identity. Everything is not perfect but I’m okay. I’m not being a bitch but stop feeling sorry for yourself, suck it up and move on.

]]> By: Jessica Doyle http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-710 Jessica Doyle Mon, 11 Dec 2006 09:55:58 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-710 <strong>range</strong> - <blockquote>Did it feel cathartic?</blockquote> Purge and cleanse. Indeed it did. range –
Did it feel cathartic?

Purge and cleanse.
Indeed it did.

]]> By: range http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-709 range Mon, 11 Dec 2006 03:56:28 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-709 Hey Jess, I am at work so I can't watch it right now, but I will later on tonight! I am glad that you were finally able to release it. Did it feel cathartic? Hey Jess, I am at work so I can’t watch it right now, but I will later on tonight! I am glad that you were finally able to release it. Did it feel cathartic?

]]> By: Jessica Doyle http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-708 Jessica Doyle Thu, 07 Dec 2006 22:11:11 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-708 Hi Carolyn - glad to see you found your way here. Welcome. The actual filming was grand because I was shotting myself in everyday life just talking, trying to understand. The hard part was in the editing. The hardest part was to release. It's released. I think maybe all of us can relate to addiction somehow whether we are inflicted or live every close to it. By being honest with myself and letting this film go I've felt this great weight lift off my spirit as of late. Those dang ISP's... ;) Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts here. Hi Carolyn – glad to see you found your way here. Welcome. The actual filming was grand because I was shotting myself in everyday life just talking, trying to understand. The hard part was in the editing. The hardest part was to release.

It’s released.

I think maybe all of us can relate to addiction somehow whether we are inflicted or live every close to it. By being honest with myself and letting this film go I’ve felt this great weight lift off my spirit as of late.

Those dang ISP’s… ;)

Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts here.

]]> By: Jessica Doyle http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-707 Jessica Doyle Thu, 07 Dec 2006 22:04:17 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-707 <strong>Scott</strong> - Your words are beautiful to me. You undertsand, I can see that it is not always possible to verbalize to those who have not experienced this opening and closing of the mind. I go on. I back sometimes. I look forward to. Today, I am thankful you shared your words here. <blockquote>Sometimes people… persons that care about me ask me what is wrong… and I can’t tell them… I can’t.. I can’t verbalize… how can you tell them you aren’t living like you know that you can.</blockquote> I think by writing it out, creating online or offline sharing thoughts freely opens their hearts and minds. Scott – Your words are beautiful to me. You undertsand, I can see that it is not always possible to verbalize to those who have not experienced this opening and closing of the mind. I go on. I back sometimes. I look forward to.

Today, I am thankful you shared your words here.

Sometimes people… persons that care about me ask me what is wrong… and I can’t tell them… I can’t.. I can’t verbalize… how can you tell them you aren’t living like you know that you can.

I think by writing it out, creating online or offline sharing thoughts freely opens their hearts and minds.

]]> By: Carolyn Manning http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-706 Carolyn Manning Thu, 07 Dec 2006 01:11:46 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-706 Hi Jessica, The other day I watched Lucidity, then my ISP went down, then the thought of coming back to comment disappeared. Anyway, it's a good testimonial and I admire you for making it. I've also had my addiction problems and I'm sure it was tough doing the film. Well, it would have been for me. Now, did I remember to subscribe? Carolyn Hi Jessica,

The other day I watched Lucidity, then my ISP went down, then the thought of coming back to comment disappeared.

Anyway, it’s a good testimonial and I admire you for making it. I’ve also had my addiction problems and I’m sure it was tough doing the film. Well, it would have been for me.

Now, did I remember to subscribe?

Carolyn

]]> By: Scott English http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-705 Scott English Wed, 06 Dec 2006 08:50:25 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-705 Wow. That was a really interesting and amazing look into your life. I hate to seem like I am drawing parallels by what I am about to say, but so be it if it is interpretted that way, it is not how I intend it: I had a love affair with Marijuana once. For me, it opened up parts of me that I had lost from my childhood... parts that explored and created and had imagination and wasn't afraid, stifled or pushed deep down inside me. I miss that part of me. Many days I feel like the key has been thrown away, and I will never see that part of myself in its full splendor again. And that hurts. And it makes it harder. And it pushes that part of me down further, away from the surface. I feel such a tenuous link to what I can only imagine is an important part of myself... the part that just explores and creates and does. Sometimes I get so... just so lost about that. Sometimes people... persons that care about me ask me what is wrong... and I can't tell them... I can't.. I can't verbalize... how can you tell them you aren't living like you know that you can. But I have put the love affair behind me. And for better or worse... I move on. I struggle forward. Days don't often seem easier than the day before... and I wonder if I can wait long enough... will I find the answer one day... a way.. without using. I don't think so. I wonder if I have lost a part of myself forever. But I keep going on. And I remember. Thank you, Jessica. Wow. That was a really interesting and amazing look into your life. I hate to seem like I am drawing parallels by what I am about to say, but so be it if it is interpretted that way, it is not how I intend it: I had a love affair with Marijuana once. For me, it opened up parts of me that I had lost from my childhood… parts that explored and created and had imagination and wasn’t afraid, stifled or pushed deep down inside me. I miss that part of me. Many days I feel like the key has been thrown away, and I will never see that part of myself in its full splendor again.

And that hurts.

And it makes it harder.

And it pushes that part of me down further, away from the surface.

I feel such a tenuous link to what I can only imagine is an important part of myself… the part that just explores and creates and does. Sometimes I get so… just so lost about that.

Sometimes people… persons that care about me ask me what is wrong… and I can’t tell them… I can’t.. I can’t verbalize… how can you tell them you aren’t living like you know that you can.

But I have put the love affair behind me.

And for better or worse… I move on. I struggle forward. Days don’t often seem easier than the day before… and I wonder if I can wait long enough… will I find the answer one day… a way.. without using.

I don’t think so.

I wonder if I have lost a part of myself forever.

But I keep going on. And I remember.

Thank you, Jessica.

]]> By: Jessica Doyle http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-704 Jessica Doyle Wed, 06 Dec 2006 07:37:04 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-704 Jecklin ah *blush*. Thank you. Your comment means a lot to me as you are another talented videographer. I smile when I read your poetic in verse almost sung comment. thanks dude ;) Jecklin ah *blush*. Thank you. Your comment means a lot to me as you are another talented videographer.

I smile when I read your poetic in verse almost sung comment.

thanks dude ;)

]]> By: Jessica Doyle http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-703 Jessica Doyle Wed, 06 Dec 2006 07:32:57 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-703 Chester I hope to do so. I would love some collaboration on it though. I think having someone else's eyes and editing expertise could do it wonders. Chester I hope to do so. I would love some collaboration on it though. I think having someone else’s eyes and editing expertise could do it wonders.

]]> By: Jecklin http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-702 Jecklin Tue, 05 Dec 2006 17:37:07 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-702 Yeah, Ms. Jessica, it is so good...you already know I like it but still...listen, your video draws me in and I won't let go...in my eyes you are Queen of Web Video Yeah, Ms. Jessica, it is so good…you already know I like it but still…listen, your video draws me in and I won’t let go…in my eyes you are Queen of Web Video

]]> By: Chester http://jessicadoyle.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/comment-page-1/#comment-701 Chester Tue, 05 Dec 2006 04:21:01 +0000 http://jessicadoyle.wordpress.com/2006/12/04/lucidity-full-feature/#comment-701 I love it!!! This should be entered in a film festival. I love it!!! This should be entered in a film festival.

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