After seven hours sleep I feel ok. I just woke up about 20 minutes ago and it is the first time in a while I didn’t wake up panicked. I keep reassuring myself there is no shame in honesty; none. Before I went to sleep last night I felt fear and a sense of calm; a sense of peace. One of the things about urges and triggers is to get away from them, do something else and the urge will pass. I feel doing the same during an anxiety attack helps also. Whatever last night was, is not now. I am still Jessica and I am alive.
I want to thank my blog today. When I use this blog to share, kindness tends to present itself. It is a place where I can write out my struggles, my thoughts and create art. I’m learning that I am not so different from anyone else.
My mom used to say growing up “just put it out there“, “give it to god” and “let it go“. There are times when this seems impossible. Life only seems impossible at times. Saying “NO” and asking people to respect your boundaries is as heavy as a mountain to say. Setting my boundaries has begun anew today.