After letting it go you begin to see the solutions

It’s always funny after sleeping on it for one night how one’s problems begin to appear much smaller with the solutions to those problems becoming more apparent.

I spent the afternoon today digging out of yet another massive Maritime snow storm. I feel relieved after shovelling that 60 inch drift from the side walkway so that the house can be accessed easily again. Wind combined with snow do create mountains and valleys outside during a storm. The front walkway on the other hand had no snow on it at all, while the back deck had about 12 inches that needed to be removed. The car was clear while the driveway was half covered.

This is akin to how a brain can react to life conditions presented to it too.

In hindsight that last blog post reflected a mind mountain where today the valley is finally visible on the other side. I know what needs to be done and am moving forward as a non smoker.

I’ve also noticed that when publishing a negative post to this blog I tend to lose one, sometimes two email subscribers and that’s OK. It used to cause angst seeing that unsubscribe notice appear in the inbox. I’m only human and will go through ups and downs just as every other human being on the planet.

What people need to remember is that when someone is crying out or complaining or wishing there life was different to the circumstances they find themselves in, all you can do is either, offer positive support, share your own life experience with them, walk away or unsubscribe from it.

Life evolves and sometimes it can evolve downward spiralling quite rapidly as is the case with me during the last few months until it climaxes and you reveal the secret to those who matter most, you. I don’t regret publishing that last post (but do feel a little silly about it, now that I think of it) that I could allow myself to get so worked up to the point that I implode into vehement words.

In any case a person does experience much relief once they climb over that mountain or shovel through it and that is mostly how I feel about that last post. I let it go and put it out there and now will move forward into the present and stopped smoking today.

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9 thoughts on “After letting it go you begin to see the solutions

  1. I am so sorry there are people out there that won’t let you have your problems. Or venting sessions. Or moments of pure you. I don’t know what it is like to walk in your shoes, but I like to hear that you are human and not an art producing machine. Even though you showed us a difficult moment, I still find you fascinating!

  2. I second Emily’s comment! Zero money spent on nicotine = More money to buy caffeine! 😉

    I sympathize with your snow situation… we’re beginning to get buried here too.
    And we have 3 screaming children literally dying to go outside and risk hypothermia by playing in it. Was snow ever fun???

    Regarding the unsubscribers… first, shame on them! It’s their loss anyhow.
    I think every blogger has experienced that nagging worry… do you sacrifice your voice and only post what readers want (i.e. tutorials, tips, and giveaways) … or do you really share what’s going on behind the scenes in your life.

    Those of us who continue to read your posts everyday know the answer is simple! We want to learn about you, and what you’re going through, and share the ride… maybe learn something about ourselves, too.
    I might read a dozen blogs offering tips and tutorials, but I don’t feel connected to the authors. I certainly don’t consider them friends. So let those people go… because you need friends more than fair-weather subscribers. ((hugs))

  3. I read your post yesterday and was very moved by it. I’m sorry if you lost subscribers because of it. Some people can’t deal with the “messier” things in life, not because of you but because of themselves. And then again, it’s possible that they unsubsribed for a completely random reason that had nothing to do with your post.

    I love your art, enjoy reading about your life and seeing your pictures, and I especially appreciate that you’re a real person with honest struggles and challenges. I can relate to that and I’m inspired by it. Keep doing what you do!

  4. Jess, thanks for being yourself. I gain strength from your blog. Especially on the days tough days, yours and mine both.

    Keep sharing.

  5. I am so behind you in the ongoing uphill battle to stop smoking. I have never been a smoker, but have found other ways to self-medicate. That is what we are doing; medicating ourselves with something the body does not need, in times of struggle, stress and self-loathing. But for some the sun comes out tomorrow. Some must wait longer to see those glimmering rays of light. and some poor souls never see the light again. I write and write, then write some more, up to 10 hours in a day. I don’t say much on paper; just fleeting thoughts or brain babble. I usually prefer Sharpie’s with varying tips. After a few hours I begin to see this beautiful handwriting form on the page. Yes, my penmanship has greatly improved. I don’t reread what I have written; no point in going back, for I remember basically what I wrote. But more importantly I remember my emotions of that page. I doodle, scrawl, scratch, pace, cry out then collapse in exhaustion at the end of the day. After a few days of seeing things clearer I burn the entire pile…and with ceremony. Now why would I sit and write the same sentence 25 times in varying scripts, with the exact time of day doodled every few inches? It gets me through the day in a safe, non-harming, creative way. I prefer using those BIG sketch books with blank pages….no lines printed. Please don’t smoke. You are too talented and pretty to mess your body up with cigarettes. Life is meant to be lived one day at a time… one moment at a time. Take it slow. Be kind to yourself. Forgive yourself. But most important…love yourself.

  6. Hi Jessica. I have been reading your blog for a long time now. I find so much comfort in your words because I can identify with so much of what you say. I have to tell you that the post you wrote the other day really moved me. I have been thinking about it ever since. I just wanted to tell you that you should never feel silly for what you feel, and that the brutal honestly with which you write is what makes your blog so true, raw, and beautiful.
    I too struggle with addiction(s) and I understand your struggle. I really believe in you, as do others, and even though it is so so so hard, I know you can quit smoking.
    Thank you.

  7. Ayup girly girl.

    Good to see you sounding more positve. That pleases me. Are you ever going to get your touche onto Skype so you have to gaze at my ugly mug and talk to me???? Eh…eh…eh…eh…eh?

    Loves ya!

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