I’m looking forward to June or why May didn’t bring flowers

Beatrice Bird Face illustration

May can just go back to where it came from with it’s rain, fog, rain, showers and did I say rain? It can also take the piercing pain and intermittent numbness in my left hand away too, and the pain in my right shoulder blade away and the dizzying mind numbing heart palpitating hypothyroidism away too. This is why I haven’t been blogging much. I’ve been dealing with a vast array of symptoms for the last 30 days and just doing my best to just be with them.

This is the first cohesive thought I’ve been able to blog during the last 30 days. I got into see the doctor last week as my symptoms had returned with a vengeance. My medication was upped this week to combat the flight and fancy I’m feeling most days. It’s confusing as heaven/hell to feel like you physically have to run a marathon when your mind is quiet and sleepy, and must sleep or rest when your mind is full of vivid thoughts and imagery. This is the yin and yang of hypothyroidism.

It’s not pleasant to wake in bed with a start and then feel like you are going to fall over and have a black out. Focus is not easy right now.

studio - illustrator jessica doyle

And the backyard garden is too sogging wet to plant or work. I’ve been spending my time with friends and family this last month. I guess it’s a good thing that I’ve learned the art of phoning or visiting people when I feel bad or am having an attack as I like to call them.

I’ve been reading, learning and drawing up a storm too as I seem to be able to research, implement, read and draw. I’ve been reading about Bitcoin and hope to offer it on a few select products in June. I read Thomas Moore’s, Dark Night of the Soul, The Road by Cormac McCarthy and Altered Carbon by Richard Morgan, BigCartel Help by BigCartel, PulleyApp Help by PulleyApp and the Bitcoin wiki written by everyone.

I went to a charity clothing swap and got some new-to-me clothes. I’ve donated more art this month to every event and charity possible. I think I’ve been added to a ask for donation list. I went to an art gallery hop and I made a few new real life female friends too which is awesome as it’s been too long. I am going to my 20 year high school reunion next month childless and unmarried. I’ve got two awesome roommates who seem to be able to cope quite well with my health issues. I’m hoping to travel to Fredericton next month and visit with two of my best friends, Vikki and Dana. Vikki has hypothyroidism and has been instrumental in helping me deal with the symptoms I’m experiencing.

Anyway, it’s been a long month, a full month.

The art in this post is a piece that I finished recently, although the photos are only depicting her half finished. I’ll post the finished one once she is scanned in. Her name is Beatrice. Say hi!

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8 thoughts on “I’m looking forward to June or why May didn’t bring flowers

  1. The art work is sublime, Jessica.

    Sending healing vibes from across the world to you, having experienced serious illness throughout my life and all the agony of waiting to heal. It’s so hard, physically and emotionally. Know you are thought of and I am sending all my healing powers – they’ve been working for me so they’ll work for you too!

    Take care of yourself xx

  2. Your artwork is intriguing and so detailed. Very nice, and reminiscent of work by Tim Burton. Woulb be interesting to see your artwork incorporated onto the Little Star’s apparel.

  3. Glad to see you are putting one of those 36 pack of pencils I sent you to good use! ;) I hope all is well with you and that your health issues subside or go into an extended remission so that you may enjoy your summer and continue making wonderful art!

    I may be going back to Japan this winter, so get a list together if you want! ;)

  4. I love this! It’s been a few weeks since I came to your site, and this just blew me away. I also love that you are drawing on what appears to be a navy blue treasure chest of some sort. I’ve always been partial to giant old luggage and foot lockers. The sort of thing you could throw over board if your ship to the new world was sinking and use it to float home. Anyway, I hope you’re feeling better Jessica. As always your artwork is spectacular and your spirit inspirational. =)

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