Category Archives: 2009

I’ll be at the Saint John City Market June 6 and 7

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I am booked to be selling my art at the Saint John City Market tomorrow (Friday) and Saturday from 9:00AM to 5:00PM.

This is the first time I’m leaving little Willow behind at home with Chris and not bringing her with me to a show. She is crawling and it would be next to impossible to keep her in a stroller all day. She’ll be up to see me midday for a couple of hours though as I’m still breastfeeding.

My art and I will be in the same spot down by Pete’s Frutique and across from The Shawarma Hut.

Hope to see you there!

I’m looking forward to June or why May didn’t bring flowers

Beatrice Bird Face illustration

May can just go back to where it came from with it’s rain, fog, rain, showers and did I say rain? It can also take the piercing pain and intermittent numbness in my left hand away too, and the pain in my right shoulder blade away and the dizzying mind numbing heart palpitating hypothyroidism away too. This is why I haven’t been blogging much. I’ve been dealing with a vast array of symptoms for the last 30 days and just doing my best to just be with them.

This is the first cohesive thought I’ve been able to blog during the last 30 days. I got into see the doctor last week as my symptoms had returned with a vengeance. My medication was upped this week to combat the flight and fancy I’m feeling most days. It’s confusing as heaven/hell to feel like you physically have to run a marathon when your mind is quiet and sleepy, and must sleep or rest when your mind is full of vivid thoughts and imagery. This is the yin and yang of hypothyroidism.

It’s not pleasant to wake in bed with a start and then feel like you are going to fall over and have a black out. Focus is not easy right now.

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And the backyard garden is too sogging wet to plant or work. I’ve been spending my time with friends and family this last month. I guess it’s a good thing that I’ve learned the art of phoning or visiting people when I feel bad or am having an attack as I like to call them.

I’ve been reading, learning and drawing up a storm too as I seem to be able to research, implement, read and draw. I’ve been reading about Bitcoin and hope to offer it on a few select products in June. I read Thomas Moore’s, Dark Night of the Soul, The Road by Cormac McCarthy and Altered Carbon by Richard Morgan, BigCartel Help by BigCartel, PulleyApp Help by PulleyApp and the Bitcoin wiki written by everyone.

I went to a charity clothing swap and got some new-to-me clothes. I’ve donated more art this month to every event and charity possible. I think I’ve been added to a ask for donation list. I went to an art gallery hop and I made a few new real life female friends too which is awesome as it’s been too long. I am going to my 20 year high school reunion next month childless and unmarried. I’ve got two awesome roommates who seem to be able to cope quite well with my health issues. I’m hoping to travel to Fredericton next month and visit with two of my best friends, Vikki and Dana. Vikki has hypothyroidism and has been instrumental in helping me deal with the symptoms I’m experiencing.

Anyway, it’s been a long month, a full month.

The art in this post is a piece that I finished recently, although the photos are only depicting her half finished. I’ll post the finished one once she is scanned in. Her name is Beatrice. Say hi!

The iMac, the ACORN, the Vacation, the Stress

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I am attending the Atlantic Canadian Organic Regional Network Conference (ACORN) this coming weekend with my folks on Friday evening and all day Saturday in Fredericton, New Brunswick. With all the health issues I’ve been facing recently and to be honest for most of my life, it’s about time I make a serious commitment to eating only organically grown food. My body is beginning to shut down in very weird ways. While my thyroid seems to be doing better (knock-on-wood) I am suffering through candidiasis and other vague, debilitating and mysterious symptoms.

I go for food allergy testing at the end of this month. I am already allergic to dust, dust mite, birch, alder, dog, cat, golden rod and ragweed. I also suspect I’m extremely sensitive to chemicals that are found in everyday household products. I have a strict no scents policy in my household… even the smallest scent of anything sets me off or causes my fingers to swell if I touch it.

During my mid-twenties candidiasis ravaged my body when my Crohn’s was active. And I’m determined not to repeat that again and get whatever it is under control, now. My autoimmune system has never been great and I’ve always been sensitive to everything but lately it seems to be getting worse. I’ve shed 1/5 of the inside of the lining of my cheeks over the last three months and It is chronically broken out and sore and I know it sounds gross eh! My eyes are red, always glassy and puffy. My skin breaks out in odd miniature itchy hives. My upper back hurts and I’m exhausted regardless of how much sleep I get.

The strangest symptom I have is that I emit the wonderful smell of garlic or onion regardless of whether I ate it or not almost always now and after some searching online many women say this is the smell of yeast i.e. candidiasis. I’ve upped my dose of pro-biotic and took a massive dose of doctor prescribed Diflucan yesterday. About three hours after taking the Diflucan, the swelling around my eyes eased and my energy returned a little bit. I couldn’t beleive it! I’ve had yeast infections down there before but what I’m experiencing now isn’t that; it’s systemic like it’s in my blood or something. All these issues are interconnected. They always are.

I just need to keep on top of it and not lose my house in the meantime. I may need to sell my car (safety net at the moment) or dramatically increase my art sales. In any case I need to decide what to do by the end of this month. I’m six weeks past due on my mortgage payments. All my other bills are paid up to date. I have six weeks before my house is repossessed and that is F#$%ing scary folks.

I feel so mad at myself for not saving more money for when things got tuff. I had enough saved for about eight weeks living expenses but I’ve been feeling shitty since late last summer. So, I went through that eight weeks pretty fast.

I am driving to Fredericton a day early (tomorrow) to bring in my 27 inch iMac in for much needed repair and servicing. Sadly, it’s not working right and sick too. As soon as I get four or five applications running the fan comes on at full speed and it sounds as loud as a hair dryer. I’ve run all the diagnostics I can and really wish there was a closer licensed Apple Dealer and Technician but there isn’t, as Saint John is all about the PC. Haha! The ethernet port also stopped working. I can only connect to the internet wirelessly now.

In any event life is good, albeit hectic, worrisome and draining at the moment. But as the answers present themselves and I learn more about my body and finances I’m coping and adjusting as needed and doing my best to keep smiling and moving forward. There is a radiant rainbow out there somewhere!

Perhaps in the not so distant future I’ll sell my home and buy an old farmhouse with a few acres of land and homestead instead of living inside the city limits.

So, yes, if you order from either of my shops while I’m away I won’t be able to ship your order until March 15th as I’ll have limited computer access while away. I’m really looking forward to spending some time with my friends Vikki and Dana too. They are two long time college pals and they have an awesome spare bedroom in their home with two big furry cats to hang out with too! And I’m going for a drink (date?) with a nice man, that I met on Facebook last year, on Saturday night. And a public thank you to my parents who purchased an extra ticket so that I could attend this conference with them! xo

The watch photos are of watches I have listed for sale in my vintage shop. The pocket watches are listed here while the wrist watches are listed here.

The Cathedral

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A short fictional story…

A simple handshake made her heart flutter… made her exhale and unable to inhale and she hasn’t been quite the same since.

On Christmas Eve everything changed. I felt electricity flowing when I turned and shook your hand and wished you Merry Christmas near the end of Mass. I haven’t been the same since. That ‘flutter’ still exists. I still didn’t know who you were. I don’t believe this has ever happened before to me.

And then you shot around the pew that separated us as the congregation stood to form lines to receive the sacrement. I couldn’t help but smile and talk to you. I know it was church and that you are not supposed to talk but your smile made me melt and your eyes mirrored what I felt. It was so cliché that I asked what your name was saying that you look familiar and did we attend high school together?

I felt blood rush to my head and nothing else existed but your smile, your face, your bright shining eyes your and second handshake upon introducing yourself while I introduced myself to you. My nerves exploded.

And we did attend high school together. We were in law class together.

You told me you worked in Alberta at the tar sands and that you had a house on the Old Rothesay Road.

I told you I bought a house over East and that I was an artist. You asked if that was hard and I said “At times” but that I rent rooms too, to supplement my income.

We walked down the length of the pew and joined the moving throngs of Catholics in the central main aisle to receive the sacrement. I wanted to keep talking… I wanted to hold your hand… wanted to scream I like you… wanted to put words to what I was feeling inside.

You had said that you likely wouldn’t be attending the 20th high school reunion but that you might attend the 25th in 2016.

I walked back to the pew after communion and the heat creeping over my body was almost more than I could endure, while kneeling to pray. When I rose to sit you were still kneeling behind me. I could barely breath. The rushes never stopped. Then the congregation rose to sing the processional hymn Silent Night. I’m singing and thinking that I need you! How do I get in touch with you.

When people began to leave the service and began talking amongst each other I turned to you and dug out a business card and gave it to you as you said you weren’t on Facebook. My folk’s were leaving and I had to go with them. I walked slowly from the church and then outside into the frigid Winter air darting my eyes to see if I could catch another glimpse of you. I didn’t see you. My mind wrestless with thoughts. Is he married? Is he single? I can’t believe I dug out a business card in church and gave it to a man.

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I climbed into the back seat of the car while dad climbed into the front. We waited for mom. Then you walked in front of the car, crossed over and got into the drivers side of a beige pick-up truck, alone and sat there staring across at the headlights of the car I was in. And I stared back at the dark truck you were in. I wanted to jump out and run over to you. All I could do was stare and hope that you’d contact me via my website contact page as there was no phone number listed on the business card that I had given you earlier.

A star from fell from the sky that night after mass while she stood on the backyard deck around midnight.

Christmas Eve came and went.

I drew the pen marker drawing inside a Fabriano Quadrato Artist Journal on the 23rd of December while thinking about skyscrapers and how humans are stacked one on top of the other within them and how it’s better to live on the upper most floors where the street noise is faint and water and sewer pipes are not continuously flowing within the walls.

Playing with colour and varnish and strolling the aisles

Size – 8.5 by 11 inches (21.5cm by 27.8cm)
Medium – Acrylic with varnish on acid and lignin free paper

I drove to Michaels one snowy day not to long ago and perused their isles of dream’s. I really did get lost that evening in that store, along with the other 12 or so women and a few men who had ventured out into the cold. It’s funny how in an art store it’s so quiet. It’s akin to walking into a library.

You open the door… you walk in and instantly smile. La-te-da. Continue reading

Artist Tip #22 – Just Doodle

Sometime last year I updated my Facebook account saying something along the lines that I couldn’t draw and wasn’t finding any inspiration in life. A cousin of mine, Marc, commented on that Facebook update by simply stating “Doodle”. This is one of those times when I wish Facebook had an internal update search engine as I can’t and will not go back through hundreds of Facebook updates to find Marc’s comment. That word though, and comment have stuck with me when I feel overwhelmed and can’t seem to be productive.

These are some recent doodles. Continue reading

The painting of the boxes and coming soon – the trunk!

I seem to float between drawing on paper and the need to paint three dimensional objects that are useful. Each little wooden box starts out naked… then I clothe it in Gesso and let it dry and harden overnight and upon waking, sand it smooth before decorating it’s skin.

When my mind is restless and full, it seems to gravitate towards painting freehand patterns to work those repetitive and occasionally obsessive thoughts out of my head. It’s gratifying to see a flirty flower, then pattern emerge stroke after stroke contouring the box surface.

When the pattern is complete I varnish it three times for good luck!

Each little box measures about 1 1/2″ – 2 11/16″ (4cm – 6,9cm).

Recently, I commissioned my father to build 10 trunks for me. These trunks are the old antique style trunks. They measure about 12 to 16 inches in width and are made from his own pattern. I’ll be painting larger and more one of a kind items this year. The trunk pictured below is one Dad built for me about 15 years ago!

Revisiting the 2009 goals list or what I did and didn’t do this year

On January 2nd of this year I wrote a 2009 Goals List. I am revisiting that list now seeing as 2009 is quickly coming to a close. In blockquotes is the goal and just below is the update…

1. Get my site off of WordPress.com and back to self-hosting

I accomplished this goal. I self host a wordpress blog on Media Temple.

2. Increase sales in the shop to 5-10 per day

My sales numbers remained steady at 1 – 6 sales per day throughout 2009, however the dollar value of each sale did increase. 😉

3. Fall in Love

Still searching for that ultimate love… I’ve met some wonderful men along the way but none that truly make me go wow! The year is not done yet!

4. Buy a 4-Family home in Uptown Saint John, live in one unit and rent the other three out

I purchased a 4 bedroom house in East Saint John (5 minutes driving or 25 minutes walking from Uptown Saint John) and rent out 3 of those 4 bedrooms to people. I share 2 bathrooms and a kitchen with them. My tenants have their own living room as do I.

5. Blog 7 to 15 times per month

I certainly met this goal! Yay!

6. Update Flickr 2 to 3 times per week

Well, it seems my use of flickr has evolved and I tend to update it irregularly with sometimes only one picture or with many illustrations all at once. And I’m happy with that!

7. Finish paying off massive 11 year Student loan debt – I’m so close I can taste it!

It seems there is a still a little debt remaining which I must take care of in 2010. You think you are done but you are not…

8. Introduce Flat rate shipping into the shop

I did this during the summer of 2009. You pay the shipping on the most expensive or heaviest item in your cart and each additional item thereafter only costs you a penny to ship! Go shopping now eh!

9. Introduce ready to hang Stretched Canvas prints and larger sized prints into the shop

The larger sized prints began showing up in the shop about three months ago. Canvass prints will be there hopefully in 2010!

10. Introduce new art (yes, I’ve been busy creating new pieces)

Many new artworks were introduced during the year inlcuding the The School of Fish, The Sultry Seahorse (a personal favorite!), Absynthe 99, Christopher the Fish, Set it Free, Hope (Peace Edition), Martha the Elephant, And a wave of sadness washed over me, The Indigo Urchin and Friends, Pussy Willows, Knowledge #1 and #2, Rolling Roses, A freind said these flowers look like breasts, Evolution, The three little kittens, Soft, Point, Float and Spring Magnolia’s… and many many more…

11. Get to four years sober off of GHB in August

And I did just that and grew some potatoes instead!

12. Do not develop another addiction

The addiction I battle is smoking. I did my best to quit in 2009 but to this day am still smoking. And I smoke OUTSIDE and diligently wash my hands before handling art and supplies. My house is a non-smoking household at all times!

13. Hire a housekeeper once per week once I’m in my new pad because as my art is created clean, neat and tidy and shipped out to you in the same way my housekeeping skills are not so

I am the hired housekeeper of this house.

14. Do 2 small custom design jobs per month

Yes, I did this.

15. Sell 1 large original artwork per month

Yes, I did this to.

16. Be featured in the local newspaper

I did something better by attending my first local art sale!

17. Be featured in a National women’s magazine

I have the proper contacts now and hope to fulfill this in 2010.

18. Be featured on a huge blog

My artwork was featured on numerous blogs this year, namely, Design Milk, Cuteable and OMG Posters! Thanks so much to everyone who featured my artwork this year! xo

19. After Falling in love maybe make a baby

Um, yeah… it’s looking more and more like I’ll need to go to a sperm bank. On the other hand I’m not sure I even want to see kids in the picture…

20. After massive student loan debt is paid off continue to live debt free except for paying the mortgage which will be paid off by tenants which will in turn, turn into my own financial security in 25 years when I retire

I’m working on this one people!

21. Maintain healthy weight of 130 to 135lbs

Yes, I met this goal!

22. Take a 2 week long vacation

I went away for one fabulous week in April/May with my Mom to Southern Ontario. Here are the pics! I’ve taken little weekends here and there and hope to next year get an actual Canadian passport and travel far far away!

23. OLDisNEW vintage will be getting a massive update

This is a work in progress… believe me there will be more fantastic stock in that shop this coming year! I have loads of it!

24. Earn more than poverty level income in Canada for the first time in four years

I am earning more but am also spending more because I own a house 😉

25. Most of all I will continue to strive to be happy and believe in magic

This is an ongoing process… that will continue for the rest of my life.

Anyhow, it was a great year! I’m so happy to have met you all and glad you are here and a part of my life!

xo