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Anxiety

Mia Flower – Is art worth the investment?

Some of what I draw or create gets lost in the shuffle deep in the recesseses of my studio or sells before I get a chance to publish it to my blog. Mia is an illustration I created last year with india ink and watercolor on Canson paper. The original sold earlier this year with [...]

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Power Pus Puss

Twelve year old Missy Two Shoes was viciously attacked last weekend. She is none to happy about losing the ability to blink her right eye after receiving a direct puncture wound to the head between her right side ear and eye.

The carnage ensued on the backyard deck. I heard the mishap and ran to the [...]

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The Physical Withdrawal VS the Mental Withdrawal

There are no words to describe how I’m feeling these last few days. The physical withdrawal from nicotine was easy. The mental withdrawal is not so easy.
I’m feeling drawn to use substitutes and am not eating enough. Oddly when most people quit smoking they begin eating more. I’m the opposite. I try to control something, [...]

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Feeling Disconnected – New Ink Drawing

We all feel disconnected from ourselves and even with the world that surrounds us during moments of sorrow, loss or simply because we are overwhelmed. Know this though, you are not alone with those feelings of anxiety or hopelessness as we all from time to time do feel this way.
Take comfort in knowing that every [...]

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RELAX!

… is what I tell myself these days, many days, perhaps too many to count.

Seems to me that when shit hits the fan it does hit all at once.
All I can do is remain calm and carry on as I am not at liberty to discuss what is going on. Not yet anyways! I have [...]

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Bloody nose or why I was in a fight yesterday…

…with dust.

Upon waking my nose ran away and my eyes cried as I climbed out of bed at 8:30AM and trotted for the bathroom. I grabbed a tissue and began blowing blood. My poor sinuses went through hell yesterday while I was at Value Village; a local second hand chain perusing then trying on clothing.
In [...]

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New HARD drive and Good Bye

My 2004 Titanium G4 laptop is not feeling so well. It’s very sick spitting up and quitting programs daily. Two weeks ago I bought a new back-up Lacie USB2 500GB external hard drive (left) to assist the 2004 Lacie firewire 80GB external hard drive (right) and the hundreds of CD’s I have burned as it [...]

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Feel Good. Not Guilt.

Hard to Read?
Click the image and become my contact on flickr so you can see (read) the larger scan of this journal entry as I am OCD when it comes to writing.
A page written in the moleskine cahier on November 15, 2007.
At the time of writing this I was nearing the end of the dreaded [...]

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An update on the metallic taste in my mouth

It has since returned ever so slowly until peaking this evening at work.
The day it disappeared I had gargled with listerine and then switched to using another toothpaste the following day. I’m beginning to suspect it isn’t the toothpaste at all but something else.
Most of December I suffered from very bad headaches between my eyes. [...]

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I don’t know what I’m doing

I really don’t. I’m pooped. I’m tired. I’m just kind of waiting for something but I don’t even know “what” that is. Maybe I’m not waiting… maybe I’m glad I’m in limbo between mind, body and soul. Maybe this is what life is all about. Maybe there is nothing bigger or better. Maybe everything we [...]

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Is this what it means?

If you don’t say what you believe then what is it that you are saying?

The struggle can drive the best of us mad at times, leaving us breathless, pondering why and how it all began. If struggle exists every moment of our lives when is there time to evolve, embrace and hence, move forward taking [...]

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The design of an imagined life becoming real – I need to pinch myself daily

I began a design project earlier this month for Scott Wallick. His wife Binita is a court reporter and I am designing and illustrating a logo and business card for her. Thus far our contact has been via email only. We have never met in person nor have we spoke on the phone.
Initially I had [...]

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Rain – 21.03.2007

Oh how I wish for the rain to cease. Why not rain, one day like crazy. Thunderclaps and lightening. Throw it down anyway you wish. Then, let us see the sunshine for a full two days. Two days, maybe three? OMG could you imagine if the sun came out for three days in [...]

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Thursday Thirteen – Dont let the bed bugs bite.

1. Joy, my new roommate moved in yesterday. Wow! As far as furniture and household items goes; what I was missing, she has and what she was missing, I have.
2. I am looking for physically intensive part-time work in my neighborhood to pay my share of rent and utilities.
3. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow! [...]

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Female Hysteria – Aids that Every Woman Appreciates – reprint

Female Hysteria – Aids that Every Woman Appreciates was first published on June 8, 2006. Minor edits have been made in this reprint.
Engrossed with hysteria I walked into my counselling session today. I travelled emotionally; climbing mountains reaching the peak only to leap off descending to the valley below. How is it possible for a [...]

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Cooked – then I ate it.

Rediscovering that it was periods of time during schooling growing up, maybeâ€¦ anxiety disorders arrise from lack of healthy interaction in pre-teen thru adolescent years. Adults who experience non-rational, mean, plain unkindness or lack of respect as a human being, as kids continue on
What is the feeling of abandonment. Does it feel like hell. [...]

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Angry Banking Brain Blog Snowball! Poof!

I seem to go through periods of time that involve me, asking more questions than I can answer. Before finishing or beginning to answer a question, one needs to be able to calm down to look at the possible answers. It is a strange but illuminating experience to actually jump to the other side. All [...]

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Scandalous

Been witting writing around the blogosphere much of late. It has been fun. I feel like I am back from something but am not sure what I am back from. Maybe a true vacation, combined with a little trust and spiced with emotion! I feel scandalous. I like that word scandalous. I don’t think of [...]

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Chapters of my life, and loving the bounce

Chapter 1
I walked down the sidewalk and
fell into a deep hole.
I couldn’t get out and I couldn’t fugure out why.
It wasn’t my fault.
It took a long time to get out.
Chapter 2
I walked down the sidewalk and
fell into the same hole again.
I couldn’t understand.
It wasn’t my fault.
This time it was easier to get out.
Chapter 3
I walked [...]

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