Female Hysteria – Aids that Every Woman Appreciates was first published on June 8, 2006. Minor edits have been made in this reprint.
Engrossed with hysteria I walked into my counselling session today. I travelled emotionally; climbing mountains reaching the peak only to leap off descending to the valley below. How is it possible for a person to cry, leave their body, and smile within a five minute time frame, all the while not knowing how she travelled from one emotional state to another.
I’m OK. It feels odd to actually state “I’m OK.” I neither understand nor remember the triggers of such outbursts. They come unbidden, uncontrolled and inadvertently end, leaving me to digest the days progression.
My councillor is a beautiful, wise and generous person. She knows my secrets. Are they secrets though? For her yes, I would say indeed they are secrets kept in confidence. For me, shedding secrets strengthens my being. I don’t need to hide. When I hide who I am I fill with fear which leads to anxiety which turns into the inability to make decisions leading to eventual hysteria. That word hysteria I looked up in the wiki simply because I have been feeling hysterical lately. They state:
Hysteria is a diagnostic label applied to a state of mind, one of unmanageable fear or emotional excesses. The fear is often centered on a body part, most often on an imagined problem with that body part (disease is a common complaint). People who are “hysterical” often lose self-control due to the overwhelming fear.
Damn they are good! And Damn I’m good for picking the proper word this evening to describe my consciousness. To take it a step farther I then looked up female hysteria. Having known some background on the subject through reading and discussion with others I believe that Damn, it is all too real today, for perhaps many women in some shape or form. Without release through orgasm everything just builds and builds and builds and then you essentially become an hysterical woman. During the earlier part of the 20th century Doctors were rubbing the clitoris of women sometimes for hours to bring on an orgasm, in effect relieving their Hysteria. This practice was a sanctioned medical procedure which lead to the popular invention of the electric vibrator. To my surprise the Sears, Roebuck and Company catalog from 1918 features a whole page devoted to:
Aids That Every Woman Appreciates – click to see a larger copy of the ad to the left.
As the years progressed Female Hysteria vanished as a medical diagnosis.
Today different manifestations of hysteria is recognised amongst other things, schizophrenia, conversion disorder and anxiety attacks
Note the term anxiety attacks. That one really hit home with me. Today I spoke to my councillor about the lack of sex in my relationship with my boyfriend. She mentioned that sex is actually a good way to relieve anxiety and depression. I thought on this and tucked it away to the back of my mind ’til later this evening after Eric went to bed. Low and behold that theory holds true! One always hears about how men masturbate once or more times per day; women, you know… we could benefit from this stimulation to!
Today my talk with my councillor wasnâ€™t just about sex. Sex was all but a small part of it. Sexuality, however, and the need to be able to express desire and pleasure freely has been difficult for me since I sobered up 10 months ago. Tonight, for the first time in a long time I felt secure in expressing these thoughts and ideas that I have been repressing. There is no shame in writing and/or expressing your femininity openly.