With Child – new pregnancy limited edition art print and I’m now 20 weeks pregnant

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I drew this pretty pregnant woman when I was about 13 weeks pregnant and struggling to get over first trimester morning sickness, dizziness and low blood pressure and later coloured her by hand around 18 weeks pregnant when I was feeling much better.

The size of this print is 8.5 by 11 inches / 20,5cm by 28cm. With Child is a limited edition of 250 only and i chose to print her on a natural coloured acid and lignon free paper.

I don’t think you really know how bad you were feeling until you actually begin to feel better. I am 20 weeks pregnant today and my belly is growing and growing. I’m feeling pretty good though.

Chris and I decided to not find out the gender of the baby so it’ll be a surprise when he or she arrives in early September.

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This is the original ink drawing before I began adding in the coloured pencil.

With Child will make a beautiful baby shower shower gift or gift to a newly pregnant woman. You can get one in my Etsy Shop.

10 Nifty Employment Facts About Me and about using WaveApps Accounting Software

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So, I’m still working on paperwork for the 2012 year. Holy Cow.

I began using WaveApps earlier in January as doing “it” by hand was just not cutting it any longer. What a marvelous piece of cloud based accounting software. As long as you understand basic bookkeeping you can use Wave Accounting software. The nice thing about Wave is it’s made in Canada and therefore has everything a Canadian small business or self employed person needs.

Anyhow,

  1. I have been working in some form or other since about the age of 12.
  2. And I’ve been self employed for 95% to 100% of that time.
  3. The longest full-time job that I held lasted for 14 months.
  4. I’ve only had THREE full-time jobs in my life. I quit two and was laid off of the the other.
  5. Since quitting drugs seven years ago then smoking 16 months ago and finally drinking 14 months ago my life, career and creativity have stabilized… if that makes sense?
  6. I’ve held numerous part-time jobs over the years to get me out of the studio so to speak… stock-person, picture framer, sales clerk, children’s art instructor, gallery manager, inventory clerk, bathroom cleaner, newspaper girl, sign painter, room rental landlord etc.
  7. I’m healthier, happier and more driven when fending for myself to earn money.
  8. I’ve never been able to qualify for either life or personal health insurance and that has made me very sad at times but uber-driven to live a healthy lifestyle. And none of the three full-time jobs I had offered group insurance.
  9. I am 39 years old.
  10. Nifty fact… As a full-time self-employed artist living in Canada I can legally claim all clothing purchased that I wear to public art shows on my income tax as an expense against my gross income.

I also read this article on home offices on CBC today and found it rather interesting. All I can say is dot your I’s and cross your T’s.

The drawing above is called PaperWork is for the Birds.

You don’t know where you are until it passes you by

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And you don’t know where you’ll end up until you take that leap of faith.

Last July life got a whole lot busier for me. I began working more at the City Market producing and selling art at the stall and Chris became a full-time parent overnight. Our lives changed instantly as Chris scrambled to find a way to look after his son while he was at work full-time. His son turned 12 shortly after and was then able to spend a few hours alone here and there so that helped.

It hit me hard. Chris went from sharing custody 50/50 with his ex to having his son full-time with no extra money, support or anything. It took a toll on our five month old relationship but it also opened it in another way and I got to see how wonderful this man really was. I also got to know his son better and saw how great of a kid he was.

While dating and single from 2007 to 2012, before Chris and I got together, I swore up and down not to date a man with children because of the experiences I had with them. These men were completely absent in their children’s lives or kept me a secret from their kids and/or their ex or were dating multiple women and lying about it. These things didn’t bode well for me as I wanted to someday have a child of my own and very much wanted an involved father in that child’s life.

So I began dating men without kids and usually these men were kids themselves who were more interested in their boats, bikes and pensions than in finding common ground to walk on together. I managed quite well to attract men who wanted no commitment.

I then quit smoking and quit drinking shortly after and began to see “I” was the reason for not attracting a quality man into my life. Well… half the reason… at least.

I’ve known Chris a long time… since I was 19… so 20 years… long… time. We grew up in the same neighborhood. He went out with a good friend of mine as a teenager. He was also a mutual friend of my ex-husband and I. I can remember sitting on the couch talking with Chris while my ex was engrossed in video games. I was never just Jessica. I was Andy’s girlfriend then wife… then ex. This all seems so long ago. A lifetime ago.

We all attended college together and Chris hung out with my ex at our apartment. We partied together but mostly I stayed home as I was sick a lot during college with Chron’s disease and physically could not handle the late nights and party’s. We all studied Graphic Design, surface design and illustration.

After Fredericton we both went our separate ways. Chris spent some time in Toronto and then had his son here in Saint John. He married and raised his two step-children and his own child. All the while I divorced and partied my ass off for five years in Saint John, Fredericton and Vancouver, perhaps making up for losing most of my twenties to severe illness and for marrying a man who didn’t share the same values and morals as I did. And there is no fault in that, it’s just the way the cards played out.

And now, 20 years later Chris and I find ourselves expecting a baby, dealing with extensive child custody and divorce issues, managing two homes, three cats and simply doing our best to keep healthy organic food on the table, the bills paid up-to-date and all the while we both are doing it sober.

Our life may seem mundane to some but it’s our life and the one we are choosing to live. Chris partied lots during his teens and early twenties while I got the partying out of my system in my late twenties and early thirties. And while I miss the parties on occasion, it’s a rather nostalgic feeling of been there done that, had fun and moving on now to the next stage of my life kind of feeling.

And I’m so grateful and lucky to have this man to share this stage of life with.

I love you Chris.

Pete the Prehistoric Octopus

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Pete measures 9×9 inches (23cm by 23cm) and was drawn with Faber Castell Pitt Artist Pens inside a huge handmade leather bound sketchbook that I received as a gift for Christmas from Chris.

I’ll add some colour to him soon. And to see him up close and personal just click on him and be happy.

I just can’t hold my stomach in anymore – or 10 weeks pregnant and Happy Valentine’s Day

Artist Jessica Doyle 2013

I have never felt more hungry in all my life than during the last 10 weeks. I can’t seem to get enough food into me before my stomach is growling and howling again for more.

We eat a relatively well balanced, organic diet that does contain grass fed beef, free range chicken and organically raised pork. We eat many vegetarian meals too. We avoid soy products except for Bragg Soy Seasoning which is GMO free and certified organic. I love food so much that I’ve already put on 5lbs and can not fit into any of my clothes that don’t have stretch in them.

I do not take prenatal vitamins. I do take 500mg folic acid and 650mg calcium with vitamin D daily. My blood and urine tests show I’m healthy except for the deviant hypothyroid in the neck. The doctor raised the dose of Synthroid two days ago that I’m on to 125mcg from 88mcg. I already notice a positive difference in how my brain is functioning. But, unfortunately, the norm persisted and around 2:00 in the afternoon I started feeling dizzy, extremely bloated, bump into things and need to lay down for a couple of hours until it passes. And while this can be pregnancy related I’m realizing that it could be the dang thyroid wreaking havoc too.

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I don’t know what is potentially crohn’s, thyroid or pregnancy related anymore. These last couple of weeks feel like the chron’s I had 15 years ago has been reactivated but then again it could be my uterus stretching. I spent so much time in the bathroom two days ago that could be because of the Synhtroid increase, it could also be because of the spicy food I ate or it could be a bug. I go to see a high risk pregnancy gynecologist/obstetrician on the 26th due to being over 35, pregnant and hypothyroid. I’ll be 12 weeks pregnant by then. The adjustment in Synthroid played havoc with my metabolism yesterday.

And today on this lovely Valentine’s Day I’m feeling a bit better albeit still dizzy I don’t feel the need to incessantly lay my head and body down like yesterday or the day before.

They say you should enjoy all of your pregnancy. And while I am I can not be happy about the pain of not being able to breath at night due to not being able to take my preferred antihistamine or smile about the candida that wreaked havoc on my body earlier this trimester.

These side effects could very well be first trimester agony’s that will pass by the end of this month. I really hope they are. I know something has recently passed because I’m able to write and form sentences again.

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And the dreams of water… they are wonderfully incessant. I dream of water nearly every night. Calm dark waters that I float in and urgently awake and run to the bathroom to pee usually like clockwork at 4:00AM. Another dream was a mystical garden filled with large carved stone hands on long arms with each finger sprouting a single fountain of water streaming from it onto a green wonderfully overgrown garden bed. And last night I dreamt of sitting in a circle with people with my belly round and hanging out and drinking water.

So yeah, I’m pregnant. After wanting a baby my whole life, well, since about age 24, and it not happening with my exes, it’s actually happened and it was planned between Chris and I. And we couldn’t be happier.

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Getting a positive pregnancy test on New Years Eve was incredible.

It’s 2013 and the beginnings of chunky marmelade

Chunky Orange Lemon Marmelade

When you haven’t written in so long it’s easier to keep on not writing. But, in the back of your mind, the words and letters keep churning and jumbling up and into empty space until you get them written down in a tangible form. While I have been drawing pictures, it’s the words that weren’t making sense to me and therefore I did not write.

These last six months have been nothing but life changing. I haven’t found God or anything like that but I have found the courage to live more honestly and to trust in those people whom, let me, into their lives. You can’t help but wonder how you could have lived the way you did for such a long time repeating gesture after gesture after ever after.

There is solace in repetitive movement and even in the the state of inaction… the ticks, the drinks, the inhalations, the thoughts, the running, the drawing, the writing, the eating, the frantic screaming, it all soothes anxiety and mends the hearts of troubled souls irregardless of how temporary or destructive in nature this self-soothing may be. We can only go on circling for so long in a state of chaos before spinning out.

So, last night I made some chunky orange lemon marmelade from scratch. That sums up my everything.

Happy 2013!

AND FYI… Handmade 2013 desk and wall calendars are listed for sale in the shop.

The Marmelade recipe I adapted from the Mad Scientist and home Cooking. Also, I used an extra amount or orange peelings that I have been freezing over the last few months. If you are going to make marmalade DO USE certified organic citrus fruit as the peelings are not sprayed or died.

About selling at markets, having a boyfriend and living a sober life

O is for owl - childrens art for bedroom by artist jessica doyle

It’s been a long time since I felt confident enough to say I love what I do. Selling at the City Market over the last few weeks has been a blessing. I worked hard to find full-time work outside of the home yet almost every door I knocked on stayed closed for the last seven years. So, I’ve always returned to creating my own work.

Not everyone is meant to work a 9 to 5 job and this time around I accept that. Just as I’m not supposed to drink or smoke. It’s been over five months since I had my last drink and while it’s occasionally hard, it’s getting easier to focus on life without donning the rosé coloured glasses.

And it’s very strange to begin seeing clearly the reasons you drank, used drugs or smoked.

I “used”, to dull emotions, senses and stimuli. I would then use to heighten them when I didn’t have enough energy.

I feel more high sober than I did high so to speak. I’m accepting the strong emotions and insane bursts of energy and focus as they come on and the people closest to me accept them too. I let those people know what’s going on and don’t bottle the sh!t up nor spend too much time alone except when working here in the studio or when resting after work.

And I’m working lots these days. The pictures in this post are scenes from the Saint John City Market, the monthly outdoor Queen Square Market, a new owl limited edition print and of the mantle in my living room. That piece sold and is on route to Indiana at the time of this writing. But, you can get your own limited edition Sassy Sea Urchin here to frame and hang on your wall form the shop.

And the boyfriend has been a positive influence on me for sticking to a routine especially when getting to bed and getting up in the morning. We drink tea and talk, go for long walks, cook meals, spend time with family, play games, explore, laugh and enjoy the present. We have much in common and enough self interests to keep things interesting and moving forward. Most of all our core values, beliefs and morals are in line with one and other.

I didn’t know that life could be this way. And I didn’t know that by saying “no” to things that didn’t feel right that eventually the right stuff would make it’s way into my life.

BTW… i’ll be at the Saint John City Market on June 30th and again on July 1st in my regular stall down by Pete’s Frootique. Drop in to say hi! I’ve got many new framed pieces to choose from, new prints and the locket sets too.

I’ll be at the outdoor Queen Square Farmer’s Market and inside at the Saint John City Market this weekend

Artist Jessica Doyle's art at the saint john city market

I’ll be selling my work at the Queen Square Farmer’s Market in the South end of Saint John this Sunday, June 17th, 2012 from 8:30AM to 2:00PM.

My booth number is 26. The rain date is the following Sunday, however the weather forecast for this Sunday is looking mighty fine and sunny!

And yesterday I began selling my art and paper goods in the historic Saint John City Market located in Uptown Saint John. This market officially opened in 1876!

I will be at the City Market on all days when cruise ships are docking at the Port of Saint John. You can read the hectic cruise ship schedule here. It’s about 70 days in total from now until the end of October.

The next cruise ship day is this Saturday, June 16th. It’s looking to be a mighty busy weekend for me. Hope to see you out and about on either of those two days. I’ll be at the foot of the market this Saturday from 9:00AM to 5:00PM in beside Pete’s Fruitique in one of the nifty red stalls.

Jessica doyle's art at the saint john city market