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Pondering the meaning of our existence and Happy Cyber Monday!

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The original ACEO sized illustration is listed on HandmadeCloud.

I created a larger 5×7 print of this illustration. It is matted to an 8×10 inch size and ready to pop into your favorite frame and hang on your kitchen or dining room walls.

UPDATE – the sale in now over. Thank you! Use coupon code BLACKFRIDAY during checkout and you’ll receive 25% OFF your entire purchase. This coupon code works on both HandmadeCloud and Etsy. This code is good until tonight at midnight. Happy Cyber Monday!

Chasing the Dragon Illustration

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We chase dragons all our lives whether we are conscious of it or not…

This illustration holds more significance to me than perhaps any other drawing I’ve rendered over the last few years. Maybe I shouldn’t sell it It signifies the turning point in one’s life where one must move forward and discontinue past follies and experience regardless of how difficult the emotions welling up inside may be. It can mean leaving jobs, changing where one lives or even ending relationships and being financially poor and emotionally destitute until the change happens. Continue reading

Three Wise Men – An ACEO of Owls

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Size – 2.5 by 3.5 inches (6,4cm by 8,9cm)

Don’t let the small size fool you… An *ACEO looks wonderful matted into an 8×10 inch standard sized frame.

*An ACEO stands for Art Cards, Editions and Originals. They are collected worldwide and are the exact same size as a Magic or Hockey trading card.

Listed for sale on HandmadeCloud.

UPDATE – At the request of a few customers this illustration is now listed as a limited edition mini print!

Something fabulous is going to happen on Wednesday…

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That illusive e-commerce art site that I’ve been working on for months is being launched this Wednesday. For REAL!

Seriously.

Glitches and all.

One can find problems and issues with each and every site on the internet, but to delay the launch date of a site over and over again when it’s only an aesthetic that’s waning and no longer the core functionality that is causing trouble, is at best, both financially and spiritually draining. When working for oneself, it’s possible to find fault with almost anything.

And the hours…

Many good folks are due a huge thank you for the coding help (both paid and unpaid) and for the stupendous mental support you’ve given me over the last year. In no particular order, here they are by first name only… Louella, John, Andrew, Gus, Vikki, Christopher, Donovan, Sarah, Aron, Stephen, Tricia, Darren and Andreas and the many others who read my Tweets and Facebook and Blog Updates.

You all listened to me via email, Skype and in person when I freaked out on more than one occassion. You all pushed me in your own way by providing answers, alternative ideas or in the least provoked me by telling me to give up and get a real job.

About one month ago I REALLY did consider getting that real job.

So, please do come back here on Wednesday morning for the launch of HC. Yes, that is an acronym, and it doesn’t stand for…

Chasing the dragon for the last five years

Chasing the Dragon Illustration by artist Jessica Doyle yellow, blue, green

Today marks five years sobriety for me off of GHB.

I drew this dragon five months ago. I added the watercolour five days ago and the image just screamed chasing the dragon once the colours began popping it to life. It still needs more work mind you… Subconsciously, I still chase that illusive dragon when working, creating or even when alone thinking or researching. When what I’m working on, creating, thinking or researching climaxes, I certainly do, feel high and struggle to get to the end. I almost can’t contain myself at times and must run outside to smoke a cigarette and sadly, nicotine is the worst drug of all, as it doesn’t even make you high.

I silently research drugs, their uses and legalities. I consider it a hobby and when I feel the need to use a substance that most certainly will cause me angst, I read back in my journals about the gruesome detox and agony I suffered through for months when sobering up from GHB.

It’s not a pleasant experience to break out in painful large blisters and pimples all over your back, arms and legs and to lose feeling in your extremities and watch your fingers and toes go blue from slowed blood circulation as you reduce your dose of GHB slowly and by half each day for one week at home. It’s not human to recoil into an infantile state regressing to points in one life while awake or asleep when bad things happened only to have to vividly relive them again and again until you aged and moved onwards to the next abuse or trauma.

Process of chasing the dragon illustration by artist Jessica Doyle winsor and Newton watercolour blue green

And I certainly don’t miss the need to dose every half hour at times and the need to overdose just to sleep for two hours at a time or the constant fear of knowing that I would die from sudden withdrawal without GHB running through my system if my drug dealer ran out of it or I forgot my bottle at home after leaving the house for that day. I would return home for the bottle. Always. You hit a certain point with GHB addiction where there is no turning back to just recreational use. Missing a dose can send you into convulsions. Missing a dose can stop your heart from beating. Missing a dose can take your breath away forever. While taking too much can make you fall asleep and go into a coma.

I do miss the first five months of the addiction; the time when everything was wonderful, my brain worked properly and life seemed easier even if it was only a charade.

And most of all, I DO NOT REGRET taking GHB or becoming addicted to it as there were times when it, was perfect.

Over the years people have said to me why not take a Xanax or a Valium to calm down. Are you kidding me? Really, offering a sedative to someone who was addicted to them for two full years (albeit the illegal kind) is like offering a recovered heroin addict a T1 or an alcoholic a just a small shot of whiskey.

Studio of artist Jessica Doyle showing chasing the dragon illustration paint watercolour acrylic

So, chasing the dragon is akin to being amongst the living.

Chasing the dragon is a work in progress. Thus far the mediums used are Faber Castell Pitt Artist Pens and Winsor and Newton watercolour on Arches watercolour paper. It measures 8×10 inches (20,3cm by 25,4cm). And I do not ever smoke inside. My household is a strict non-smoking and scent free home.

The programs offered by addiction treatment centers are designed to help treat addiction to any kind of illicit drug.