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Finding passion without becoming addicted or why six years on it’s not any easier

2012 calendar desktop monsters handmade aliens pretty whimsical etsy

I wrote this blog post earlier this year in May but hadn’t published it. This seems to be a common occurrence as I write a lot but don’t publish them. And with 95 blog post drafts sitting anxiously I thought well, now is the time to edit and publish. Anyhow, I recently celebrated six years sobriety of off hard drugs on August 26th so while perusing the drafts I re-read this one and thought it appropriate to share with you.

For the last six years I’ve been searching for something that doesn’t exist. A something that perhaps exists in everyday life but doesn’t exist in the nether regions of one’s psyche. One can never return to the past nor can they return to the future.

While I may think of chemical drugs almost everyday I know that if I consume them it would spell the death of me as I’d fall so far down the rabbit hole that I would not return as the drug means more to me than life itself and more than everyone and everything else in this world. I knew this, and understood this, when cleaning up from addiction in 2005.

And I miss the freedom of living in a larger urban center and of being free to not wear a bra and being free to not look like the rest of the population surrounding me. While it seems tuff at times to live in a small town… yes, Saint John is a small town even though it is officially declared a city… it is still a small town by modern standards; and a very conservative small town at that. And to see fashions that were in style in Vancouver in 2007 rearing there head here right now is mind boggling as it’s nuts to think that it takes four to five years for fashions to make their way from West to East.

I was talking with my cousin a few days ago who is four years older than I. We are both relatively single and do not have children. We are also both self employed and creative although her creativity is a hobby while mine is my main source of income.

I can remember at age 12 or 13 visiting with her and her showing me the many drawings that she drew and being inspired by them. I don’t know if you know that Rochelle. But I’ll never forget the amazing ink drawings you rendered as a teenager and how you told me to keep drawing even when I didn’t feel like it while we stood in your bedroom. I’m fortunate to have had people in my life who inspired me creatively at a very early and tender age.

As I near middle age now, I wonder if this is how it’s supposed to be. While I don’t enjoy being single, I do long for savageness and wild abandon. I miss it to be honest. I feel repressed here in Saint John and while I have sex on very rare occasions, I do miss the damn connection that comes when you finally meet the right person. I’m sick and tired of dating. And this isn’t to say that I’m looking to lay just anybody. I’m not addicted to sex but I am human and I hunger for physical contact but MUCH more than that I want a life long commitment with someone.

I may never have children and that is not okay. So six years on it’s not any easier. And that is the truth people about addiction. It never goes away, but you can use it to your advantage and work with it, molding it into inspiration to continue living and striving for the life you want.

Handmade by me 2012 Desk and Wall Calendars are listed and ready to ship in the art shop now. Pictured above are the 12 months from the desk calendar.

Customer Appreciation Photo – Bree’s post office

A few days ago, good friend and Massage Therapist from Portland, Oregon, Andrew Jecklin sent me this photo of his daughter’s play Post Office. She uses the little miniature greeting cards and envelopes that I create from scratch as part of her mail delivery system. Kids love these little cards!

There are now 10 different sets of greeting cards listed in the shop now to choose from.

And just for size reference, they are tiny!

Thanks Andrew for sending me this photo!

Studio Special on Matted Art and a Giveaway for You

Illustration fish art by artist Jessica Doyle

So the deck located on the side of my house is about to fall off. It is by no means secure. The backyard deck, thankfully can happily live through another summer before needing to be replaced, although it is in need of repair too.

I got to thinking about how I can earn the money I need to replace this side deck and staircase that my tenants use to enter and exit the house and thought about running a sale on matted prints. I tend to run two sales per year; once during Springtime and later in early Fall, and then again sometimes I don’t.

This is how I make my living, and at the moment, although my art sales are steady, I do not have any room to maneuver after having recently paid my property taxes in full. And what do people do when they need more money… well they put in overtime to earn the money that they need and for me, that means running a sale.

The matted art prints measure 8×10 inches and will fit directly into a standard sized frame which can be purchased at your local department store. Each archival print is matted and backed with acid free materials.

These matted prints make wonderful wedding, birthday or shower gifts. And they do look striking hanging in your bathroom, on your kids bedroom wall or on a living room shelf or mantle.

This Studio Special will run from Tuesday, June 1 to Tuesday, June 8, 2010 in my Etsy Art Shop. The matted prints are regularly priced at $25 each and are on special for $18. Thank you!

And do leave a comment on this blog post and I’ll enter you in a draw for two of the matted prints. I’ll draw the winner on June 9, 2010.

Happy Tuesday!

We Are Healthy – Collaborative Children’s Colouring Book

Yaelfran from Argentina contacted me in late August to ask if I’d be interested in submitting a drawing to the We Are… series of colouring books she produces monthly. Of course I said yes! What artist doesn’t love illustrating for children! And to quote the listing:

I can’t tell you how exited I am about this wonderful project.
“WE ARE…” is a monthly publication, that showcases Etsy’s artists illustrations in black for you to paint or just to keep as they are.

Every month we will featuring a group of 15 illustrators who will showcase their interpretation of a different theme. There will be also SPECIAL EDITIONS, like HALLOWEEN or CHRISTMAS ones.

This publication is printed on 250 gr paper, with a professional printer. It’s size is 4 x 6 inches closed. A very sweet size that gives you the possibility to take it with you in your bag, wallet, pocket, etc.

You can also separate the pages (by trimming them carefully) and have different and gorgeous postcards!!!!!

And below is the drawing I submitted to We Are Healthy of raindrops falling on a flower and a vine helping them both grow healthy.

Etsy Artists in this edition:

Pepperminte
Apak
Ohmycavalier
Heidiburton
Matilou
Kathannah
Marmeecraft
Geninne
Erindollar
Juliapott
Hisss
LittleRobot
JessicaDoyle
TheDreamyGiraffe
SuspectShoppe
eekdesign

You can buy the colouring book in Yaelfran’s Etsy shop.

ENJOY!

The three little kittens they lost their mittens

The three little kittens who lost their mittens illustration by Jessica Doyle

This is almost vintage Jessica Doyle. I completed this illustration in 1995. It was drawn in pencil, painted with watercolour and highlighted with both ink and coloured pencil on Arches watercolour paper.

The original measures 12 by 12 inches / 30,5cm by 30,5cm

Three little kittens they lost their mittens, and they began to cry,
“Oh mother dear, we sadly fear that we have lost our mittens.”
“What! Lost your mittens, you naughty kittens!
Then you shall have no pie.”
“Meeow, meeow, meeow, now we shall have no pie.”
The three little kittens they found their mittens,
And they began to cry,
“Oh mother dear, see here, see here
For we have found our mittens.”
“Put on your mittens, you silly kittens
And you shall have some pie”
“Meeow, meeow, meeow,
Now let us have some pie.”
The three little kittens put on their mittens
And soon ate up the pie,
“Oh mother dear, we greatly fear
That we have soiled our mittens.”
“What! soiled you mittens, you naughty kittens!”
Then they began to cry, “Meeow, meeow, meeow”
Then they began to sigh.
The three little kittens they washed their mittens
And hung them out to dry,
“Oh mother dear, do you not hear
That we have washed our mittens.”
“What! washed your mittens, you are good kittens.”
But I smell a rat close by,
“Meeow, meeow, meeow” we smell a rat close by…

This illustration is very similar in style to Do you love me.

Slowly but surely I’m scanning in my older illustrative work and creating prints of them for you and are available in my art shop. These illustrations are large and must be scanned in sections and painstakingly pieced back together again in photoshop. The alternative is to have a digital photo taken of the artwork. I do send out my much larger acrylic paintings to a local photographer for digitizing. It is expensive to do it that way but worth every penny as the alternative would be next to impossible on a 8.5 by 11.5 inch scanner.

Someday soon, I’ll own a good camera and be able to take the shots myself.

Artist Tip #21 – How I created children’s paper scrap packs for Christmas gifts

Last night I assembled three paper scrap packs for my nieces; ages three, six and eight.

If you are like me you have many many paper scraps, oops prints and papers that are too small to use. I cut down a larger sheet of cardboard with teddy bears printed on it which now doubles as the backing inside the 8×10 inch plastic bag. The resealable plastic bags are the same ones I use to seal my art and reproductions in. A ziplock baggy would work fine to.

I dug out my medium paper scrap box finding all the pretty paper I could and cut any rough edges square and did the same with the paper from the miniature scrap collection. Next, I sifted through oops and test prints and placed five or six in each bag.

scrap pack - jessica doyle

I cut down one strip of blank stickers and wrote on the back “Draw your own Stickers” and drew the first two for them so they could colour them in.

Lastly I made four packs of itsy bitsy mini blank greeting cards with envelopes for them to draw on. I recycled used kraft mailers to make the mini envelopes and found some shiny red paper to create the envelope seals with. I threw in a glue stick and then sealed each bag.

scrap-021

They look fantastic! I hope they like them :)

Last Artist Tip – How to draw a miniature in 5 easy steps

Maybe keeping it straight isn’t how it is to be?

Mispec beach is located moments outside the city line on the Bay of Fundy. It is a frightfully cold salt water haven where pale ghostly Saint Johner’s go to swim, lay on the sand and sweat. As the end of summer approaches I thought I’d never make it to the beach as the fog and rain were heavy here most days. Saturday, I was there with a man named Andrew and his two boys.

It’s funny how children enter your life unexpectedly. First, my brother who is dating a woman (they are practically married now) who has three little girls aged three, six and nine; all blond and all very cute and intelligent. They were here this evening bringing my mom her 59th birthday gifts. I took them out in the backyard and we began picking carrots, wax beans and potatoes. Then we moved on to flower petals and fresh lavender while I explained to them how to make pot purri with it when they arrived back home. A few of my friends have children to, with whom I’ve been seeing more of lately and it’s not so bad. What the heck what I so scared of!

I was on a date that day at the beach with the man with two kids. I had panicked a few days earlier calling my brother “What do I do?!!!”, “His kids… Ahhhhhh”. My brother laughed and being the calm man that he is, says “Jessica, they are a package deal. Meet them sooner than later and decide from there.”

Andrew picked me up… two boys in the back seat aged six and eight. I sat in the car, buckled up and we were on our way.

And it comes down to this… I don’t have children of my own. After two long-term relationships ending and no children as a result I think I had begun to wonder whether it was possible to meet a man who wants children that I was attracted to. I don’t know where I’m going with this and maybe he is even reading this but this is my blog and my creative outlet for thought, idea and experimentation and he will understand because I write or I will go madly insane! I’m not saying Andrew is the one but he certainly is nice and sexy and stuff…hmmm and one never knows 😉

This last month I’ve been around more kids than I have in the last five years. Really! And they are all under the age of ten who are bursting bubbles of energy and new inspiration.

Life can get bland pretty quick when all you do is repetitive mundane tasks while walking a straight line without veering off that path. I went on two dates last week with two different men. It happens all at once when you least expect it to. One man I will not see again as it brought me straight back to feeling empty, uncomfortable and wanting to use drugs to cope.

Andrew on the other hand, I hope to see again real soon…