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I just can’t hold my stomach in anymore – or 10 weeks pregnant and Happy Valentine’s Day

Artist Jessica Doyle 2013

I have never felt more hungry in all my life than during the last 10 weeks. I can’t seem to get enough food into me before my stomach is growling and howling again for more.

We eat a relatively well balanced, organic diet that does contain grass fed beef, free range chicken and organically raised pork. We eat many vegetarian meals too. We avoid soy products except for Bragg Soy Seasoning which is GMO free and certified organic. I love food so much that I’ve already put on 5lbs and can not fit into any of my clothes that don’t have stretch in them.

I do not take prenatal vitamins. I do take 500mg folic acid and 650mg calcium with vitamin D daily. My blood and urine tests show I’m healthy except for the deviant hypothyroid in the neck. The doctor raised the dose of Synthroid two days ago that I’m on to 125mcg from 88mcg. I already notice a positive difference in how my brain is functioning. But, unfortunately, the norm persisted and around 2:00 in the afternoon I started feeling dizzy, extremely bloated, bump into things and need to lay down for a couple of hours until it passes. And while this can be pregnancy related I’m realizing that it could be the dang thyroid wreaking havoc too.

homemade indian food, black rice, tomato, pita bread, chick peas, garam masala

I don’t know what is potentially crohn’s, thyroid or pregnancy related anymore. These last couple of weeks feel like the chron’s I had 15 years ago has been reactivated but then again it could be my uterus stretching. I spent so much time in the bathroom two days ago that could be because of the Synhtroid increase, it could also be because of the spicy food I ate or it could be a bug. I go to see a high risk pregnancy gynecologist/obstetrician on the 26th due to being over 35, pregnant and hypothyroid. I’ll be 12 weeks pregnant by then. The adjustment in Synthroid played havoc with my metabolism yesterday.

And today on this lovely Valentine’s Day I’m feeling a bit better albeit still dizzy I don’t feel the need to incessantly lay my head and body down like yesterday or the day before.

They say you should enjoy all of your pregnancy. And while I am I can not be happy about the pain of not being able to breath at night due to not being able to take my preferred antihistamine or smile about the candida that wreaked havoc on my body earlier this trimester.

These side effects could very well be first trimester agony’s that will pass by the end of this month. I really hope they are. I know something has recently passed because I’m able to write and form sentences again.

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And the dreams of water… they are wonderfully incessant. I dream of water nearly every night. Calm dark waters that I float in and urgently awake and run to the bathroom to pee usually like clockwork at 4:00AM. Another dream was a mystical garden filled with large carved stone hands on long arms with each finger sprouting a single fountain of water streaming from it onto a green wonderfully overgrown garden bed. And last night I dreamt of sitting in a circle with people with my belly round and hanging out and drinking water.

So yeah, I’m pregnant. After wanting a baby my whole life, well, since about age 24, and it not happening with my exes, it’s actually happened and it was planned between Chris and I. And we couldn’t be happier.

first-response-pregnancytest

Getting a positive pregnancy test on New Years Eve was incredible.

A List of 10 Good Things

It’s so easy to focus on what’s wrong and forget about what is right within our own personal lives. These last few months I’ve found myself pulling away from the online world and forming and strengthening relationships in the real world and honing and learning new skills that will indeed help me in the future.

swiss chard saint john new brunswick

While the cooler Fall weather settles into the Northern Hemisphere we need to take stock of what is good and positive.

Here is a list of 10 good things.

1. Vegetable and herb gardening in the backyard (rainbow chard pictured above)
2. Eating locally sourced organic food (meats, eggs, veggies)
3. Learning to freeze, preserve, pickle and can with Mom
4. Building a cold room for storing root veggies with Dad
5. Building two new decks on the house with my Dad and Brother
6. Family and friends
7. Three great tenants living in the house
8. 2012 Calendars are listed
9. The hypothyroidism is under control
10. Seriously thinking of beginning an organic farm

A few readers have written asking why I haven’t been blogging. The Summer slow down perhaps? Nothing to say maybe. Needing downtime and outside time in order to keep it all in perspective for when I’m able to return to it most likely.

I don’t like to make promises as they are surely to be broken but I can say that I’m never very far away and doing my best to work through some creative, insurance (nightmares) and future-proof business solutions so that the good things might multiply.

I hope you all are doing well too.

The kitten pictured above is my parents new kitten. She is crazy and had jumped on my lap to play with the camera cord.

The 20 Year Reunion Part 2 – and into the night we danced

While everyone in attendance likely has a different opinion of how the St. Malachy’s High School 1991 Graduating Class 20 Year Reunion went and of what they remember, made them laugh, made them uncomfortable or even made them think twice of another person, the following is from my point of view only.

A few days before the reunion an old acquaintance that I see once or twice per year facebooked asking if I’d like to get together with a few others for supper and a drink before hand. I immediately agreed as up until then I had many horrid day dreams of walking into and having to face the reunion alone.

I showered and dawned the special $3.00 second hand dress and 10 year old sandals and waited for Lisa to pick me up. We met up with Cynthia, whom I’ve been great acquaintances with since age four and Brian whom I don’t quite remember from high school, but was impressed that he is as geeky and nerdy as I am. We met at the Ale House, a popular local restaurant and enjoyed some great food and conversation together.

My stomach had been hurting and turning for days and as we left the restaurant and began walking to The White Room, a high end licensed venue a few short blocks away, it really picked up in the knot factor. Continue reading

Happy Mother’s Day – wreath of joy drawing

mothers day wreath illustration berries leaves joy happiness artist jessica doyle

Just a quick note to say happy mother’s mother’s day to my mom.

I love you! xoxo

I drew this wreath late last year with a Pilot G-tec C4 pen inside a Fabriano Quadrato journal. Last week, I added in some vibrant colour using Prismacolor Verithin coloured pencils and a few highlights with a white Pilot Choose pen. The illustration section pictured above, squared from the journal, measures roughly 5×5 inches (12,5cm by 12,5cm).

Remember Evolution? Customer Appreciation Photo

Customer appreication photo - Emily holding original illustration by artist Jessica Doyle

A few weeks ago I was contacted by Alex who lives in the United Kingdom. He was asking if I could ship my artwork Priority Post to the UK so that it would arrive in time for his niece’s 16th Birthday. I wrote back saying yes and with an estimate on the shipping and handling charges and asked which piece he would like the additional shipping charge added to in the shop.

mandala illustration - fruit slice art by artist jessica doyle

I was delighted when he wrote back saying Evolution. What is nice about this particular illustration is that it is one of the few pieces that I documented during the process of creating it. I sent along the link to the step by step guide blog post so that his niece could learn how to create Evolution as an assignment in school.

step by step illustration - how to draw a mandala

This was a great surprise to me. Thank you Alex and Emily for permission to use your photograph and to share your story here on the blog. I’m still smiling. Hope you are both well. And Emily, good luck with your art studies! :)

Summer slowing and getting ready for an exciting Fall

artist jessica doyle's hands

Stepping back and really looking at one’s life to find what makes you happy is one thing while stepping forward in search of solace and discovering what really makes you tick tock is quite, another.

Digging in the dirt makes me happy as does renting rooms to people in my home. Spending time with family and friends is another happy thing in my life.

2010 is certainly shaping up to be a year of changes for me and I don’t see them ending but I do see them turning into more fruitful endeavors; the results of which are somewhat unknown yet shaping themselves more and more everyday.

on handmadecloud.com

I’ve been working on the e-commerce site and have people testing it out as we speak to make sure the little bugs are squashed and that checkout is seamless. It’s coming along and here’s a sneak peak of what the homepage looks like.

sneak peak of jessica doyle's new e-commerce shop

You’ll happily be able to shop by colour, collection, material, occasion, price and size. I’m adding products daily to the shop and it’ll be launching later this week.

Oh… how long have I been working on this thing and to actually see it coming together simply, feels good. There were sooooooooooooo many days when I just wanted to give up and throw in the towel. But, thanks to a few key people (Andrew, Mom, Dad, Donovan, Gus and a slew of other friends, family and acquaintances who listened to my programming and logistical nightmares and inability to cope or learn certain things) in my life, I trudged onwards.

Thank you all for the kind words too.

Also, I just listed the 2011 Sea Life inspired Wall Calendars on Etsy. They will be listed in my own shop in Canadian Dollars too if you want to wait to buy it in CAD and not USD.