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Summer slowing and getting ready for an exciting Fall

artist jessica doyle's hands

Stepping back and really looking at one’s life to find what makes you happy is one thing while stepping forward in search of solace and discovering what really makes you tick tock is quite, another.

Digging in the dirt makes me happy as does renting rooms to people in my home. Spending time with family and friends is another happy thing in my life.

2010 is certainly shaping up to be a year of changes for me and I don’t see them ending but I do see them turning into more fruitful endeavors; the results of which are somewhat unknown yet shaping themselves more and more everyday.

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I’ve been working on the e-commerce site and have people testing it out as we speak to make sure the little bugs are squashed and that checkout is seamless. It’s coming along and here’s a sneak peak of what the homepage looks like.

sneak peak of jessica doyle's new e-commerce shop

You’ll happily be able to shop by colour, collection, material, occasion, price and size. I’m adding products daily to the shop and it’ll be launching later this week.

Oh… how long have I been working on this thing and to actually see it coming together simply, feels good. There were sooooooooooooo many days when I just wanted to give up and throw in the towel. But, thanks to a few key people (Andrew, Mom, Dad, Donovan, Gus and a slew of other friends, family and acquaintances who listened to my programming and logistical nightmares and inability to cope or learn certain things) in my life, I trudged onwards.

Thank you all for the kind words too.

Also, I just listed the 2011 Sea Life inspired Wall Calendars on Etsy. They will be listed in my own shop in Canadian Dollars too if you want to wait to buy it in CAD and not USD.

Hope – Peace Edition with a touch of love or… lust

Hope - peace limited edition artwork by artist jessica doyle

More than ever we as human beings need more peace and tranquility in our lives. This isn’t to say that excitement and even struggle are not a part of it, yet there comes a time when we must move on and change our lives for the better, even when it hurts.

I feel optimistic that the hard work I’m doing will create a more fulfilling life both spiritually and financially. For too long I relied on a second income and help from a spouse only to leave one and be left by the other. I guess that evens me out. And I do hope to meet the right person someday as it does get lonely.

Very recently, I broke up with man whom I’d been dating on and off for close to eight years when we were both single. I fell in love with him. And after talking with a close friend the other night who suggested that maybe I was lusting after and not loving this man; did I realize the first to be true. She to, in turn is going through an extended break-up and I’m so grateful to have her to talk to for where I live there isn’t many single women in their 30’s who don’t have kids, to talk to or single men that I click with for that matter.

So, I’m releasing hope into the world today.

And you may remember the original drawing of Hope in pastel hues of pink, blue and green…

I played with this drawing quite a bit in Adobe Photoshop to get her to a beautiful yellow ocher colour. I’m pleased with how she turned out. Hope is a limited Edition. There will ONLY be 40 printed. You can get her in the shop.

Secret #5 – Stop Smoking

Twenty years have come and gone since I picked up my first cigarette and smoked it. I like it you know.
the taste the feel, the way it filled my lungs and how it circled upwards twirling into the air once exhaled. It has always visually entranced me…

About three years ago I stopped smoking indoors. Yes, the amount I smoked decreased somewhat but that’s not the fucking point. And yes,
I’m somewhat grumpy
somewhat heaving
somewhat lazy and mourning
and saying good bye to a companion whose been by my side
for two
decades

The fallacy of smoking is that it’s wonderful for a person like me who moves from one extreme to another… the harder it is to do something the more I’ll find a way to continue doing it
braving sub-zero temperatures…

72 hours ago I put out my last cigarette.

And for all you Etsy sellers and yes this is on my mind you demonizing little forum writers… not all smokers, smoke inside and not all smokers touch their artwork with smokey hands. I am/was diligent with washing my hands and keeping myself clean.

And maybe I’m lashing out right now. It’s been so quiet. All I want to do is cry but all that does is make me sad and want to curl up into a little ball and sleep. My focus sucks. My creative energy has all but gone into the fog that’s rolling in from the bay outside. My chest feels heavy and I know it’s only because for once I’m getting adequate amounts of oxygen into my lungs. But you know what I want that vile cigarette.

I bought a house this week! Happy! but here I am crying like a baby about a cigarette. Why today is it bugging me so much!

I quit in 1997 for 13 months after my appendix ruptured and was literally rotting inside me. I had morphine to cope with withdrawal so smoking didn’t really matter when I could pump drugs directly into my blood stream.

I quit in 2003 for 19 months using Zyban. Mmm what to say about that except Zyban mentally can mess with your psyche pretty bad. Be for-warned.

I quit for 2 days in 2006. On the third day the DEA raided my office in Vancouver, BC, Canada. Yeah, so I relapsed and began smoking again. Fuck that I said. I want my crutch and I want it now. Those men have rifles pointed at me and there arresting my friends.

so here we are in 2009.
72 hours into quitting and I’m honestly fine.
Are you reading between those lines?
I read a book called “Allen Carr’s EASY way to quit smoking”.
I think it slightly hypnotized me. Needless to say I’m damn lonely right now.
NOT one of my closest girlfriends is a non-smoker.
THEY ALL SMOKE! 90% of the females aged 25 to 45 where I live, smoke.
And guess what!
The men don’t unless they are aged 45 to 65.
WTF?

I’ll tell you though… physical withdrawal from nicotine is NOTHING! It’s a wee little blip in time. It can’t even kill you.

It’s nothing compared to the wee seizures, bone chilling shaking extremities, skin eruptions, low blood pressure, hallucinations and psychosis from GHB withdrawal that can actually kill you dead.

The You Guys are Great List!

Just a small note of thanks to all of you! I read each and every one of your comments on this blog. If there is one thing I’ve learned during life it is this; to not to hide your sadness, anger or frustrations. And that those feelings are as valid as happiness, love and acceptance.

So, here’s to you today!

Kimberly from A Kimberly Design
Mark Dykeman from Broadcasting Brain
LynnDel from Mrs. Noodles
Julia from One Woman Studio
Karen Faulkner from Karen Faulkner Art
Nina from The Canvas Dog
BevE from Merry Weather Book Blog
Heather from Heather Jerdee
Karin Grow from Karin Grow
Son of Incogneato from Son of Incog
Goog from the comments
Donna from Tiny gold Crowns
Matt Craven from Bryght Path
Lorrie from Illusio Creative
range from The Memoirs
Alex from Lexi Art
Ruth from Ruth J. Jamieson
Beth from Indie North
Kara from Kara Phillips Design
Allison Whittington from Paint and Ink
Andrew from Drawing Strangers
France from Wagonized
Hélène from Une Page Sanistre
Joanna from Joanna Photography
Harold from Harold Fedderson
Tia from Sugar Lotus
Maria Cerezo from Neuva Primavera
Muriel Areno
Esther and Estella from Star of the East
Alicia from the Sunday Blog
Ruthie from 5 Precious Things
Crystal from Queen of Torts
Melinda from Melinda Mulcahy
Mario from Medusa de Lumbre
Melanie from Melanie’s Crafts
Dinah from DraginFly Enchantment

I traveled back in time one month to find you all here on this blog!
Thank you for the wonderful conversation!
xo

Hope

Hope

I drew this as a test to see if a miniature drawing could hold up being printed at a 5″ by 7″ or even larger as an 8″ by 10″. This original measures 2.5″ by 3.5″. And guess what it held up beautifully for printing after scanning it at the obscene resolution of 900dpi.

I drew Hope with colored Pilot Pens on dusty rose cotton Canson paper. The white is also an opaque Pilot Pen. I have hope.

Expect many of my miniature’s and ACEO’s to be available for purchase as fine art prints in 5″ by 7″‘ or larger in my store.

And for size reference the top image of Hope is about the size it was drawn at.

Hope