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It doesnt matter til later for scathing microscosms to spit up – sketch

Angry Pepsi Cigarettes Machine - EastVanEsica - 2007

Title – Scathing Microcosms
Medium – ink on acid free paper
Artist’s Statement – Angry Pepsi Cigarettes Machine

During the course of composing this post I’ve come to realize that all these thoughts and ideas of mine are not out of the ordinary. Maybe in smaller microcosms of human life they could be. I think about this like-mind thing that gets lots of press-time in the blogosphere. It has truly intrigued me. I am not alone… Repeat 1000 times.

To you Mr. Angry, your anger inspires me. If you can create while angry and be happy, I can too. I mustered up all the courage I had last night and drew a picture under the influence of anger. I smile now, but last night just like when writing this article tonight, I’m starting to see, what it is, that flares or fans the anger within me.

This has been a release post – this had to be right brain driven, because I know my left brain would say “Jessica, no you can’t.”

But I did.

Well it has been a while since publishing Angry Banking Snowball Poof. This is the afore quoted angry sketch drawn that fateful eve in late November 2006.

Good rid ens PEPSI!
On February 7th I secretly began drinking one can of Pepsi a day.
Today, one month later I am about 10 15 pounds lighter.
2L of Pepsi a day isn’t so PEP, si – eh?

Suggestive conspiracies and chimes – are they real

Try hugs not drugs button campaign – the teachers walked around putting their arms between the grades 4-5 students as they danced, abruptly nudging either sober 8-10 year old gender an arm’s length apart from each-other. Ecstasy is mainstream now. Try drugs for hugs.

Pacman – eat as many as you can

Blue and red striped bounce ball – given to school age children to play with in the early eighties. Pepsi connection?
Pepsi = is pep

People who believe that they are not succumb to advertising only need think back upon their childhood. Church, government and third generation corporations are currently commencing their forth, 20-30 year stint together. 😉

Widgets Lab played the ding ding ding N.B.C. a-ling to me. I went back and checked again and there it chimed once more. Sound pollution advertising. I won’t be returning. I don’t care who owns you. Repetitive jingles without user choice installed. Not.

UPDATE – Thank you Derek for changing the Gabbly chat window (causing the chime) to inCirles which has no sound.
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Been witting writing around the blogosphere much of late. It has been fun. I feel like I am back from something but am not sure what I am back from. Maybe a true vacation, combined with a little trust and spiced with emotion! I feel scandalous. I like that word scandalous. I don’t think of it as a negative word. It is more like a rollarcoaster of events that leads one to where she is now. That is what scandalous means. Yeah! And how can being happy be considered bad? I, Jessica Doyle am happy :) :) :)

Maybe this is all just in my head. You know what?


Scandalously Happy!
The reality of a thank you
Do you like ads that have movement in them?
EastVanEsica’s take on things

And one other because I am such a huge Pepsi consumer…lmao! Thanks Liz. I guess this could happen… be wary of drinking to much pepsi people!

The other night Eric and I discovered the Death by caffeine calculator – It would take me 278.39 cans of Pepsi-Cola before <a href=”this would happen! Is there a death by burger calculator?

No measurements, no stats and the diet continues on after a brief hiatus

My last weigh in at the doctor was a whopping ???lbs. Woot to me eh? So who and what can I blame my 32 year old bodies shape on? Paxil, Pepsi and a creative mind’s favorite word, procastination. At this moment in time I want to say I would still like to be a part of the diet, however I am not going to set a goal. I am just going to live and let living be my guide.

Pepsi - thanks for trying

Doing things to fast causes me to backtrack into the recesses of my mind. I began this diet very fast and very furiously. I was in hyper mode. LOL. Anxiety was ruling my daily activities rather than doing I was thinking and re-thinking myself into oblivion. I took a break from posting to The Diet and would like to resume posting to it today and hopefully in the least, write bi-weekly updates.

I have been active but not as physically active as I was before. My mind has changed from that of an anxiety ridden mind to that of a I can’t keep up with my ideas now mind. The paxil has done a good job of controlling my anxiety. I miss though anxious moments of thought that would drive me to create with all those ideas I have. My brain works pretty good. Lot’s of ideas. Procastination has become a way of life over the last couple of monthes in the sense that it is very very difficult to organize my thoughts coherantly and get them out. Maybe the paxil has relaxed me to a point where nothing matters anymore physically. Without physically acting on my mentally engineered ideas, how the hell am I to lose weight, write, paint…
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How to Get a Square to Fit into a Circle

In the search for understanding, we as human beings, have been taught to ask questions if we do not understand something. This is one of the most beautiful gifts we have been given; the ability to learn and intelligence. So now we can learn and we can ask questions about what we are learning to further understand it. We learn through our senses. We listen to the answer. We could watch a demonstration of the answer or even feel the answer through touch. Put simply we learn through example from those who came before us.


Now that we have learned something what do you do it? You could get a job with your newly learned information upon graduating from a center of higher learning. You could teach what you have learned to new, up and coming individuals or groups. Or, you could use what your new found knowledge by building upon it. By building upon it, I mean asking more questions, trying out techniques you develop yourself, exploring possibilities that you have not been tried before.

This is where the creative mind comes in.

Take a circle and a square of the same proportion and size. How do you fit that square through the circle? Fold the square? Thinking three dimensionally to ascertain certain answers that have puzzled people for years for begins solving past problems. And thinking three dimensionally is not as difficult as one may thinketh.

We are taught in school to write out the problem and formula followed by the solution. What if you already know the answer but not how you got to it? What if you know the formula but not the solution? And what if the problem isn’t really a problem at all; it is a quandary just to find out who knows, both the formula and the solution.

Problem. Formula. Solution. Why. How. Answer.

While visiting my doctor on Friday she again asked if I would like to talk with the Nutritionist on Staff. I grumbled saying “You asked me that the last time I was here.” For a split second I thought OK, this won’t be so bad. I fought back the little voice inside saying nooooooooo, Jessica you can figure it out on your own. I knew the problem and solution but lacked the proper formula to eat properly.

20 minutes and sitting in another office later with the Nutritionist I was anxious to the point of not being able to sit still. She smiled and introduced herself to me asking “What have your eating habits been since about grade seven?”. I knew they were bad, good, delightful, erratic and impulsive matching my nature to a tee. God, I thought I have not eaten a regular breakfast since grade seven. For 20 years I have not eaten a regular breakfast.

The last time I spoke with a Nutritionist was in 1997 following two surgeries for Crohn’s Disease. I did well with the diet prescribed and have been in remission since then. My weight since that time has fluctuatied 20 to 30 lbs at any given time. I don’t meet the criteria for a full blown eating disorder. However, what I am doing is not healthy. Funny though, I damn well know what I’m doing is not healthy, the why or problem and know the consequences of what I am doing is not healthy, the solution or answer but have never fully understood how it is unhealthy. The how is the formula I know why we as human beings need to eat properly to eat properly. I undestand proper serving sizes. I also know the Canadian Food Guide to healthy living. So why am I heaviest right now?

Back in grade eight I decided it best to eat only frozen mini-sips all day, not eating my first meal until supper time, after school. I always ate a healthy supper and then had many snacks until bed. I’m not a teenager anymore. I’m not in my twenties anymore. I am 32 and my body just does not bounce back as easily from my wild eating habits.

The nutritionist explained to that not eating until six or seven hours later after waking causes your metabolism to think it is still asleep. And that the sugar I drink through consuming Pepsi gives me the energy I need to get through the day however it puts weight on my belly and bum. She said you may think that eating three meals a day would cause you to put weight on but that it is a myth. When you eat breakfast after waking up your metabolism wakes up therefore begins to work. Feeding yourself regularly will keep your metabolism regular. It will begin to know when you are awake and then asleep. Right now my body is thinking it is asleep except for that short period of time in the evening when it awakes from eating supper and later snacks.

The answer is easy. Through following the formula one loses weight.

I will post my prescribed diet on Tuesday with the weigh in results for The Diet.

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Week 2 Weigh in – Jessica

This past week I gardened, hula hooped and did some long distance walking. My Pepsi intake is about the same. I will be able to do a weigh in once a month at the doctors office. My waist and hips decreased by a half inch each. I’m winding down on my Valium taper and feeling some pretty strange intense side effects due to that. Tapering off caffeine and sugar right now isn’t a large priority for me when I’m nearing the end of a vary long battle with addiction to sedatives. I often try to do too many things at once and hence lose the the battle with all of them. When the Valium taper is complete I will choose another to say good bye to.
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Week 1 Weigh in – Jessica

This is very new to me, that is the having to lose weight. My weight tended to fluctuate between 115 and 130lbs for the most part, during the whole decade of my twenties. However when I reached age 30 my weight range averaged between 125 to 145lbs. Now at age 32 my weight as of my last doctors appointment was 160lbs. OMG!

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